omgosh its christmas eve tomroorw and it doesnt feel christmas.. oh dear :/

last christmas is stil very warm&fuzzy in my mind (: this dae last yr i would be ... in korea just flown there & be going out agen... nagawww miss it ! >:C

soo lazy didnt even put up the tree this yr.. loosing the christmas spirit ): sighfish..

dear you,

i thought it was inevitable that i'll never see you on a pedestal after waht you did to A. but after todae, i almost forgot and i still hoped for you to fit in and become and understand another part of my world. im shy around you, bcos in a while wer still too civil to be good frends, but it changes. at least im not nervous to talk to you animore. but im suprised that i actually didnt see you in a different light. or maybe its jsut bcos i dont know you well enouugh. its inevitable that when A is around things mite be seen differently, but during this time while he wont be? i hope it leaves us time to be better frends :) bcos i want to build a real frendship with you and not just bcos your a frend of some1 that is dear to me even tho somehow you did hurt him as a frend too.

theres some gap that i cant quite locate, its like i dont feel totally at ease when we hang out. but heeey~ i hope we'll fix that :)

ilybro:)

someone once said : boy & girl bestfrends dont work until yovue liked each other and talked about it and gotten over it.

after todae, i think :) im ready to be bestfrends agen <3 how you talked about girlfie? hehe i can tell your in it for reals this time :) the way you said : "im going to see my girlfie" hehehe made me smile bcos of your chessynesss :P ilybro :) and you make me smile everytime you visit mee ^^ even just todae :D gaa~ you make me laugh. you can be sucha dick sometimes... and i mentally stab you in my brain, but then i just love how your soo lame <3

no matter how many times ppl tell me your not a good influence? idkare.. bcos every other time..they told me some1 was crap for me ? theyd come back 3 years later.. and tell me.. his fkrn mad afterall..

and im like OMGOSHH.. but i giggle inside but through all the sadfish things, i secretly knew ;)

ilyyyyy <3 in a non-gross way ;)