Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
:)
needa live my own life, needa stop think-ing backwards to the past (Y)
needa learn to appreciate whos infronta me, needa learn to be confident in my own decisions
needa stop rely-ing on the comfort some1else gives you
needa be independant and smile at the bad times
needa stop being so predictable and irrational
needa learn to be a leader and a role model
needa learn to love others as much as i love myself
needa learn to love myself
needa press pause when things are hectic and press open for my heart to let God into my life ♥
needa learn to appreciate whos infronta me, needa learn to be confident in my own decisions
needa stop rely-ing on the comfort some1else gives you
needa be independant and smile at the bad times
needa stop being so predictable and irrational
needa learn to be a leader and a role model
needa learn to love others as much as i love myself
needa learn to love myself
needa press pause when things are hectic and press open for my heart to let God into my life ♥
Friday, August 20, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
18-08-2010
everythings fixed now :)
todae it makes me keep thinking, what happend in those two daes when everything felt like a fantasy flash back.. but its okay.
ive learnt theres nothing i can do to make things better or worse for the situation. but i guess we didnt know waht we wer both thinking but im pretty sure i made it obvious ennough. the way we wer all standing at the busstop.. then u went to stand in the sun and then i went to talk to A & C and when you came back.. i moved.
like the way when you can go back to the past and say to them : hey we havent talked in a while , hows things going ?
its like it don really matter for you. or do we havta wait till weve not talked for that long before youd start remembering we used to be bestfrends ? imy but i cant tel you bcos i dont wanna end up having to confront the fact that maybe you dont actually care animore. it did seem all like a game until we realised bestfrends means commitment then things fell apart. heh
on the other hand... -for some1else-
i keep questioning if we did this on purpose to test our boundaries.. but i have no or little faith we will pull thru. remember hwo i told you i get bored easily ? if i have to.. i move on just as fast. would things be like 2 years ago when we jst spontaneously stopped talking ? i dunro how i feel about the situation now... its starting to feel like .. idkare animore.. and thats starting to worry me
todae it makes me keep thinking, what happend in those two daes when everything felt like a fantasy flash back.. but its okay.
ive learnt theres nothing i can do to make things better or worse for the situation. but i guess we didnt know waht we wer both thinking but im pretty sure i made it obvious ennough. the way we wer all standing at the busstop.. then u went to stand in the sun and then i went to talk to A & C and when you came back.. i moved.
like the way when you can go back to the past and say to them : hey we havent talked in a while , hows things going ?
its like it don really matter for you. or do we havta wait till weve not talked for that long before youd start remembering we used to be bestfrends ? imy but i cant tel you bcos i dont wanna end up having to confront the fact that maybe you dont actually care animore. it did seem all like a game until we realised bestfrends means commitment then things fell apart. heh
on the other hand... -for some1else-
i keep questioning if we did this on purpose to test our boundaries.. but i have no or little faith we will pull thru. remember hwo i told you i get bored easily ? if i have to.. i move on just as fast. would things be like 2 years ago when we jst spontaneously stopped talking ? i dunro how i feel about the situation now... its starting to feel like .. idkare animore.. and thats starting to worry me
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
cute :)
haha. fcuk i hate my jap teacher .. shes sucha waste of life..
but thats okay (Y)
had a great time todae~ even tho abit ALOT stressed, bio was fun :)
laughing with jan LOL. about nothing just like in junior yrs...
being amused by the straightface we wer all trying to pull, and the clicky sound by the mouse AHAHAHA makes me smile just thinking about it
then R thinking us two are nuts.. then bobbing along with our little " keyboard/mouse/scroller
orchestra xD cute~
oh ydae was funny too~ c-MAN & the bumperstick made in our grade.. writing " ch***to**r D.... " on the bumper stick not expecting the lady to read it out LOUD xD LOLd so hard.. couldnt breathe then the lady was likie :O whats rong ? LOL
ydae was funn too~ hehe :) then M's little ' herro kitty ' fob joke with sera todae.. oml ilyguys :)
but thats okay (Y)
had a great time todae~ even tho abit ALOT stressed, bio was fun :)
laughing with jan LOL. about nothing just like in junior yrs...
being amused by the straightface we wer all trying to pull, and the clicky sound by the mouse AHAHAHA makes me smile just thinking about it
then R thinking us two are nuts.. then bobbing along with our little " keyboard/mouse/scroller
orchestra xD cute~
oh ydae was funny too~ c-MAN & the bumperstick made in our grade.. writing " ch***to**r D.... " on the bumper stick not expecting the lady to read it out LOUD xD LOLd so hard.. couldnt breathe then the lady was likie :O whats rong ? LOL
ydae was funn too~ hehe :) then M's little ' herro kitty ' fob joke with sera todae.. oml ilyguys :)
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
honest
mang, havent been blogging bcos things are so messy lately. just too tired to.
todae is day1 and things are ALREADY a mess. i wonder if we'll last ~ haha my little faith :c im sorry bro (N) i hope your not like me (Y) gloomy bittersweet todae but thats okay :)
haha thanks for designating some1 to "watch out"/unbored for me while ur gone :\
i miss J. like that 2 daes, i had everything back to normal and even going my way (Y) then i hadta draw the line to clear my guiltypath from last time we muckd up..then i was brutely honest & hurt his feelings again :c
Me: blahblahblah is that okay? if we dont?
J: nohp
Me: does it mean you dont even give a shat about how i feel ?
J:no, question right back at you
Me: wtfishballs, -thinking- if you don give a shizzlesausage about how i feel ,then why are we even texting? -pisssed-
J:no, asin i do care. but obviously you dont bcos you dont care for the my feelings for you
oml... -flashback- the weekbefore
J: back in the daes when i had a thing for you. ;)
may i hilight HAD. bogosh! pasttense? exactly! -sighfish-..
why make things so complx when the nite before all this happend, i sed to P, that ive given up hope to mend things (Y) & that ima be a bigirl and drop it
then this crap comes along.. and now im not sure WAHT we are..
& they say girls are indecisive..
i MISS how we hung out, i MISS how you used to care so much, i MISS you visiting me when no FUNNY BUSINESS happend between us. but i DONT miss all the crap we did together.. but its just not rite... i want that frend back. not that boy whos trying to GET with ppl. :c
todae is day1 and things are ALREADY a mess. i wonder if we'll last ~ haha my little faith :c im sorry bro (N) i hope your not like me (Y) gloomy bittersweet todae but thats okay :)
haha thanks for designating some1 to "watch out"/unbored for me while ur gone :\
i miss J. like that 2 daes, i had everything back to normal and even going my way (Y) then i hadta draw the line to clear my guiltypath from last time we muckd up..then i was brutely honest & hurt his feelings again :c
Me: blahblahblah is that okay? if we dont?
J: nohp
Me: does it mean you dont even give a shat about how i feel ?
J:no, question right back at you
Me: wtfishballs, -thinking- if you don give a shizzlesausage about how i feel ,then why are we even texting? -pisssed-
J:no, asin i do care. but obviously you dont bcos you dont care for the my feelings for you
oml... -flashback- the weekbefore
J: back in the daes when i had a thing for you. ;)
may i hilight HAD. bogosh! pasttense? exactly! -sighfish-..
why make things so complx when the nite before all this happend, i sed to P, that ive given up hope to mend things (Y) & that ima be a bigirl and drop it
then this crap comes along.. and now im not sure WAHT we are..
& they say girls are indecisive..
i MISS how we hung out, i MISS how you used to care so much, i MISS you visiting me when no FUNNY BUSINESS happend between us. but i DONT miss all the crap we did together.. but its just not rite... i want that frend back. not that boy whos trying to GET with ppl. :c
Sunday, August 8, 2010
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