honest

mang, havent been blogging bcos things are so messy lately. just too tired to.

todae is day1 and things are ALREADY a mess. i wonder if we'll last ~ haha my little faith :c im sorry bro (N) i hope your not like me (Y) gloomy bittersweet todae but thats okay :)

haha thanks for designating some1 to "watch out"/unbored for me while ur gone :\

i miss J. like that 2 daes, i had everything back to normal and even going my way (Y) then i hadta draw the line to clear my guiltypath from last time we muckd up..then i was brutely honest & hurt his feelings again :c

Me: blahblahblah is that okay? if we dont?
J: nohp
Me: does it mean you dont even give a shat about how i feel ?
J:no, question right back at you
Me: wtfishballs, -thinking- if you don give a shizzlesausage about how i feel ,then why are we even texting? -pisssed-
J:no, asin i do care. but obviously you dont bcos you dont care for the my feelings for you

oml... -flashback- the weekbefore

J: back in the daes when i had a thing for you. ;)

may i hilight HAD. bogosh! pasttense? exactly! -sighfish-..
why make things so complx when the nite before all this happend, i sed to P, that ive given up hope to mend things (Y) & that ima be a bigirl and drop it
then this crap comes along.. and now im not sure WAHT we are..

& they say girls are indecisive..

i MISS how we hung out, i MISS how you used to care so much, i MISS you visiting me when no FUNNY BUSINESS happend between us. but i DONT miss all the crap we did together.. but its just not rite... i want that frend back. not that boy whos trying to GET with ppl. :c