everythings fixed now :)
todae it makes me keep thinking, what happend in those two daes when everything felt like a fantasy flash back.. but its okay.
ive learnt theres nothing i can do to make things better or worse for the situation. but i guess we didnt know waht we wer both thinking but im pretty sure i made it obvious ennough. the way we wer all standing at the busstop.. then u went to stand in the sun and then i went to talk to A & C and when you came back.. i moved.
like the way when you can go back to the past and say to them : hey we havent talked in a while , hows things going ?
its like it don really matter for you. or do we havta wait till weve not talked for that long before youd start remembering we used to be bestfrends ? imy but i cant tel you bcos i dont wanna end up having to confront the fact that maybe you dont actually care animore. it did seem all like a game until we realised bestfrends means commitment then things fell apart. heh
on the other hand... -for some1else-
i keep questioning if we did this on purpose to test our boundaries.. but i have no or little faith we will pull thru. remember hwo i told you i get bored easily ? if i have to.. i move on just as fast. would things be like 2 years ago when we jst spontaneously stopped talking ? i dunro how i feel about the situation now... its starting to feel like .. idkare animore.. and thats starting to worry me
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