im sorry

im sorry that now everytime we talk its less and less exciting, less and less silly & memorable.
i dont think its called growing up but more like wer getting tired.

i used to alwaes brag about how ive got this really amazing frend.. that puts up with me and never flinches when i get angry... and alwaes lets be have my way even when it makes no sense. but the more weve thought about things and sed the things that used to be magically left unsaid, i realised... it ruins the frendship.

i guess i used to be the ignorant one in this frendship and now that waht i used to say to you or do to you wasnt very nice of me, ive changed to become a frend that deserves you. But it jst means the memories weve had wont repeat itself bcos our frendship is no longer pure.

now.. i havta think about things before i tell you.. and now i have worry whether youd be too busy to hear about my dae or even if your too busy sorting some1elses problems. i guess ive learnt to be less selfish from you, but at the same time, lost a frend i used to tell everything too :/ now we keep secrets to keep our distance and sometimes, im scared you judge me.

funny huh? we used to talk everydae and never realise what we say but still have a great time. Now, your just like any other... you may ring and i mite get tired or we'll just sit there in silence in our seperate mindsets. i dunro how to keep you away bcos youve meant soo much to me over the yrs, but im scared if we go on like this.. we'll eventually become hi bye frends. i dont have teh guts to tell you this in person bcos i know id end up in tears. i hope you never read this, or even if u find this, you wouldnt know its you. but i needed to let this out.. bcos tonite i just felt like i was distracting you from waht you really wnan achieve in life & thats just too selfish of me

when things used to be simple for me, it probably caused you much pain and time and patience.. but thankss for being that frend... but i dont think i quite deserve someone like you.