theright-thingtodo

I did it...
I did what was right. what i knew had to be done.. but now i have a hole in my heart :(

bcos i know .. the moment he asked " is it alright were like this " ..

i wanted to say... yes. or even avoid the question all together. But i was talking to another frend at the same moment.. & i knew i couldnt let her down. Because shes the reason my immaturity in making decisions is fading. and that my decision-making skills are growing up because i can no longer just let myself go and do what my impulse drives me to do.

i needa be responsible for what i say and do... ecspeshially in situations like this.

The moment he said.. i understand.. i said : its bcos i never wanna put our frendship down , i never wanna loose what we had .

and he said.. " but i thought this would make us stronger "
i couldnt see " US " going far ahead if we changed the direction of our frendship.. so i hadta steer it back the way we were.. but now...

i think thru doing the right thing.. ive lost a really close frend. i alwaes thought in a situation like this, id be the one who got played. But hey... as i thought we wer both just neutral and got caught up in the moment? you wer in a different light...

your feelings wer in it for real.. but i was just mucking around. And now we say.. wer still frends like before for forever? i know... once forever comes out... its never gna last that long.

im so sorry for being an idiot. please never take my actions sersly... im sorry.
i shed tears for this , bcos i knew ive just lost a really good frend <3