forever? psht

mmmmmm, very distracted in every way. ooops.

" Im glad wer still close like before " he says.

" I wonder what will happen if we got angry at each other , would this end ? " i say

" We wont get angry at each other. but if we do, id cry" he says

dont wanna be pessimistic maaang, but when you expect forever, it kinda doessssnt really work taht way..

lucky God is forever without a doubt. -phewwwf- loveloveloveYou God&Jesus&Mr.Holy Spirit

hmmm~ on a more serial note: discipleship, & china.. i know... camp aint suppose to be about funfunfun... but... i can imagine hwo gay its gna be without very important ppl who make the camps awsome :) & with china... i dont think im ready. i want it to be something i do when im really ready & i can do it whole heartedly and just wanna BURST AND HELP PPL :D but right now, im not quite there yet even on the maturity levels. I hope they have fun & learn alot about serving ppls but :o

puts a smile to my face when i hear how others have realised theyve showd a little bit og God in their lives ; tehee..

OMFISHINGGORSH, i needa do my speech... fml

hehee.. finding every single excuse not to do it... even PLAYING THE PIANO before it .. wtf..

okokay concentrate! bubbbies -lovelove-

fml

ttm

pierc-ings & alice in wonderland !

yaaaaay~ alice in wonderland :) excitable ? yes

ummm, pierc-ing. marmie approved ofcourse ! she sed: if i let you get this one, your gna want to get more and more...

damn straight ! but thats a little later when your a softy about it all agens.

teheee. right now im happy with the deal i made with you!

life sucks balls ALL the time.

im trying really hard i promise...

seems like a tonn of bricks just fell on top of me. now i finally knnow how humpty dumpty felt when he fell off that wall... he broke his head, but i broke my heart.

at least his head was hollow, so he didnt loose much. but yehh...

" its sad when ppl you know bcome pple you knew, when you can walk right past some1 like they wer never a big patr of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. its sad how times change"

life sucks balls all the time...

i guess whn you take some1s love for granted, you loose a lot more than you expect. but, i hope its just some stupid phase, bcos ive realised life without some1 like you to make me dae IS really dull...

and waiting eevrydae for you to make my dae sure ruins every other dae you dont turn up.

Im like a Statue Stuck staring right at YOU

This is a song... hehe i really like... and... at first, like every other person... id think of the stories behind the song and how it links to me? and then the story the song is trying to protray. of how the guy has an amazing gf that he believes he doesnt deserve and he sings about his love for her and how he suprises and soaks in amazement everytime things go rong but she still sticks with him when .. " she could have any man she wants "

ummm... then R reminded me of devotion... and i thought back to how ive been quite distant to God lately.. reconsidering if i should be song leading... or even leading at all.. or even if i should be doing discipleship? but i did it alwaes... bcos... i knew if i put it off now, its just another excuse i have to never do it ... bcos tis hsc soon... and then uni ... and i heard... " things change " dnt wanna risk widening the gap with HIM.

soooo i re-listend to this song... statue- lil eddie. and.... sang it to God ? sounds a little silly, bcos its not a gospel song or anithing... but please. be patient and sit down and open the youtube vid. and look at the lyrics... and maybe youd get waht im talking about. -lovelove-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAIWXD0lNxA

When a day is said and done,
In the middle of the night and youre fast asleep, my love.
Stay awake looking at your beauty,
Telling myself im the luckiest man alive.
Cause so many times i was certain you was gonna walk out of my life.
Why you take such a hold of me girl,When im still trying to get my act right.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer.
I shouldve been a [season],
guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?

Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when im lost for words
,Everytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause i cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (stuck like a statue)
Ask myself why is you even with me,
After all the xxxx i put you through,
Why did you make it hard
Its like youre living and i make you??
But baby your love is so warm it makes my shield melt down (down),
And everytime were both at war,
You make me come around.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer for.
I shouldve been a [season],guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?

Chorus

Every single day of my life i thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause theres no explanation,cant solve the equation
Its like you love me more than i love myself.

Chorus

When a day is said and done,And in the middle of the night youre fast asleep, my love
Im the luckiest man alive.

****soooo, wer the luckiest (wo)men alive, bcos God is so amazing he ... makes us stuck for words everytime we disapoint him bcos his so amazing. .. and soo many times we mite want Him to walk out of our lives... but He doesnt..

and He knows we all have potential to do/serve Him .. so He is OUR MIRACLE.

and when our love breaks down.. He never leaves us... sooo this is to you God

things im addicted toooo ♥ & my dae todae (first of autumn 2o1o)

icecreaaaaam! this awsome goodness about it. im addicted to the COLDNESSSSS IT BRINGS YOU that makes your tongue go numb, then the after feeling seeps in with the creamy flavours associated :)

coffeeee ; the smell is super MMMMMMmmmmm~

the silly things my frends say :

there are many msn codes that ppl often get rong or the rong meaning of: (some commited my yours truely some, by my frends xd )

*in the brackets are the real meanings*

fag: (adouchebagmale) friendly asian guy
fop: fresh off the plane
w/e: (watever) wouldnt everyone?
tbh: (to be honest) tooth brush holder
stfu: (shut the eff up) stuff u!
apec:(some international forum, dont even know the actually words) apple pie eating competition

todae was so nerve-racking... kidna expecting you wer gna visit during the free, and kinda sooo hoping you wont at the same time. didnt see you at all todae ~ then found out from ur homiies in the arvo most of the guys wer at swimming T_______________T

your stupid mate keeps hitting on me >< what a douche-bag...
stupid CC brought up " the relos of JC in yr7 " first sentence: oh yeh she was T's ex!

Chris: WTFISHH YOU WENT OUT WITH THAT GUY!?

mannng... never gna hear the end of this in rollcall ><

... scared to call OHS teacher... shizzzles ><

P.S. hehe most uni students start todae :) hope they liked being the little fishys agen :) lys all

P.P.S talked to W ydae.. about a certain some1 we wer not content with animore... its soo sad we lost respect for him... i really valued him as a frend and some1 i could rely on :( but.. ppl change, things change and we havta moove on right? buttt i hope one dae, when wer both more mature we can meet all over agen and be even stronger than before ^^

P.P.P.S WATCHEDD LION KINGII & ALADDDIN (in chinese) ydae with everyone :)

P.P.P.P.S ive been lied to for 16 yrs... i thought the disney side story from beauty & the beast was the ACTUAL STORY -heartcracks- then i realised this yr... thaaaat, none of those " be my guests" and etc songs are in it .. so its a FAKE! (side story)

and... i realised last yr its "skin cancer" not " sun cancer" but the SUN gives you CANCER! but meh, im still calling it SUN CANCER ;)