boredfish...:c

very bored :$
i need a life :c sighfish
that is all :)

THEALMITEYGOD is humor-ing me :C

its like everytime i decide on something, God humors me.

like how i got over my 7/8 week crush ? and then he decides to remind me of him in every aspect of life. even in my assessments !

like wtfishballs ><

in my legal speech assessment where ppl have their notes infronta them and the entire class gets everi1s notes in a booklet?

in 2 different presentations, his name was in it 3 times? like altogether.. and his name isnt like a common name like: mike or james or watever. its a not common name..

FML...

hahaha R's assessment was so funny. she didnt use spellcheck bcos she didnt use WORD ? example of her typos : " New South whales" LOL J hilighted & giggled thruout all of her presentation, and when she showed us, the entire page was like highlighted LOLFACE!

tick tock around the clock x)

found out.. i waste alotta time with you. even soemtimes when im just doing nothing ... or even when im study-ing ur sucha distraction. even tho wer not great frends... i sometimes wish we were. but cant imagine how much time youd take up if we were. so i guess its a good thing :)

thought about deleting you off msn, but i gues thats kinda cold : thought of just not worry-ing about even talking animore ... couldnt help myself but to ask how your doing. somtimes even wanted to make an excuse just to stay off msn or even to stop thinking about it but i guess its just running around bcos of my boredom xP

time to clear distractions. after 7 daes id know waht to do :) bcos thats the amount of time i gave myself to get over my distractions in life and to focus on things tht kinda assist me in properiousing more in life.

so from tonite til next sundae nite :) the answer will pop up. 7 daes to go !

todae was good :)

even tho my brains cry-ing bcos of legal & maths ext. ?

todae was good :)

had maths (wasnt too bad)
train ride :) things are getting better. comfortable not perfect but comfortable enough to keep it to ourselves
sleep + food
studies :\ but everythingelse is great.

tomrorow is legal then maths ext. after that no exams.

but engrish ext assess. and then Ls :S

i hope i survive this week, bcos your the reason i survive to reach the other end of the week <3

awmygorsh. lonefish

mygorsh.. i miss you guys. clearly once a week or sometimes twice is not nearly enough :C

but i learnt.. i shouldnt be going bcos of the ppl but rather for God :) but... it is very lonefish without you guys.... :C sadfish...

ive counted up to 7 ppl hassl-ing me about CJCAMP2010... fml dim suen ler ?

but JK has given me a good 7 daes from todae to tell him and decide.. waht to do waht to do ><

oh weels.. back to being a nerdfish 8D gl anyone who has exams...

oh P.S. A.TIBBS spoke todae. he wasnt so badd... maybe its bcos we havent had him for a while... or maybe my attention span when i was a little kiddie was way way shorter than now ? but i reakon it was very enjoyable and quite good :)

hope he didnt feel like an outside.. and still felt our love as a community :l



V: "pray for those who has been part of this and has walked away or left, bcos the ppl who has heard about Him yet walked away and decided on living an independant life from Him, have it far worse than those who have never known Him "

waaah. its been long.

omfg... i havent blogged in a while...

im very mixed atm. frendships became very vague to me.

my definition is : a person you know. that is a frend to me.

but frends come in different levels yeh ? i mean..intimacy. i mean you wouldnt go to a randomdom and tel them. hey man, im hurt-ing soo much inside. pleaaaaase help me :O

i mean.. i think youd never make another frend whod take yous sersly if you did :O

but yehhh~ its so confusing. and some frends you think. yehh things are pretty ckoool. everythings pat down. then other complications arise. (wow i sound so smart hehe)

ummm. i hate drawing lines. bcos theres never a line thats straight soo much confusion requrieed/created/ watever.

i wished i never knew waht you tolod me... bcos noww i havta back off and keep a distance bcos i dont wanna be in the middle of YOUR muddle and make things more complicating for you ... ><
but ur suppose to be my (synonym to best)frend...

i miss you :( i really do.

pierc-ings & alice in wonderland !

yaaaaay~ alice in wonderland :) excitable ? yes

ummm, pierc-ing. marmie approved ofcourse ! she sed: if i let you get this one, your gna want to get more and more...

damn straight ! but thats a little later when your a softy about it all agens.

teheee. right now im happy with the deal i made with you!

things im addicted toooo ♥ & my dae todae (first of autumn 2o1o)

icecreaaaaam! this awsome goodness about it. im addicted to the COLDNESSSSS IT BRINGS YOU that makes your tongue go numb, then the after feeling seeps in with the creamy flavours associated :)

coffeeee ; the smell is super MMMMMMmmmmm~

the silly things my frends say :

there are many msn codes that ppl often get rong or the rong meaning of: (some commited my yours truely some, by my frends xd )

*in the brackets are the real meanings*

fag: (adouchebagmale) friendly asian guy
fop: fresh off the plane
w/e: (watever) wouldnt everyone?
tbh: (to be honest) tooth brush holder
stfu: (shut the eff up) stuff u!
apec:(some international forum, dont even know the actually words) apple pie eating competition

todae was so nerve-racking... kidna expecting you wer gna visit during the free, and kinda sooo hoping you wont at the same time. didnt see you at all todae ~ then found out from ur homiies in the arvo most of the guys wer at swimming T_______________T

your stupid mate keeps hitting on me >< what a douche-bag...
stupid CC brought up " the relos of JC in yr7 " first sentence: oh yeh she was T's ex!

Chris: WTFISHH YOU WENT OUT WITH THAT GUY!?

mannng... never gna hear the end of this in rollcall ><

... scared to call OHS teacher... shizzzles ><

P.S. hehe most uni students start todae :) hope they liked being the little fishys agen :) lys all

P.P.S talked to W ydae.. about a certain some1 we wer not content with animore... its soo sad we lost respect for him... i really valued him as a frend and some1 i could rely on :( but.. ppl change, things change and we havta moove on right? buttt i hope one dae, when wer both more mature we can meet all over agen and be even stronger than before ^^

P.P.P.S WATCHEDD LION KINGII & ALADDDIN (in chinese) ydae with everyone :)

P.P.P.P.S ive been lied to for 16 yrs... i thought the disney side story from beauty & the beast was the ACTUAL STORY -heartcracks- then i realised this yr... thaaaat, none of those " be my guests" and etc songs are in it .. so its a FAKE! (side story)

and... i realised last yr its "skin cancer" not " sun cancer" but the SUN gives you CANCER! but meh, im still calling it SUN CANCER ;)

first daes are excitable 8P

todae is the first dae of yr11,
no matter how dashing everyone looks in our new senior white shirts, somethings just not right xD

maybe bcos wer still sooo immature we dont deserve the white shirts, but finally we feel like a famfam speeding towards the same goal. HSC heh Lol

but watver :) 8) soo exciting ive got goals this yr ! bubbbbbies sweetdreams all xoxo

A, MANY KISSES ALL THE WAY TO FRANCE D:

ohemgee im tired.

saw people todae :) *thumbs up* was gonna go to volleyball to see C , but then last minute bbal was cancelled & stuff stuff so i ended up not going, then he ended up going thinking everi1 was going, then it was all a bigfat confusion... hehe anwiaes... and i didnt get to see A...but yeh..

lol

man, p-loser ruined my nite tonite : first thing as soon as we talk : ' we have 10 daes till skool left ! '

omg bro... best warning in the world.. NOT ! im scared to see your face bcos aparently we have the same colour of hair.. and im like: OHMGOSHHH that reminds me of waht happened in yr8...

but thats something i should forget and let go . (hehe)

back to A .... shes going to FRANCE TO DEFERE FOR A YR BCOS SHES OMGOHSHHHH >< btw, shes flying loiek .. TOMORRROW !?

i thought she was still hanging around for her gap yr.. but she thought i knew..
and mannng, i couldve seen her todae if i wasnt so lazy in not going to volleyball ........ *heart cracks*

so yehh... sleepy but too heartbroken to sleep..

too much to take in , in one nite..
aww todae was some1 speshials 21st celebration :) sooo a bigfatshoutout to you ! if your reading this :) , which your prob not, so im just talking to myself *heh*

im sorry if i seemed out of it... or disinterested in moments, i was so exhausted but all mixed altogether and something, i forgot how to react..

todae.. well... K came up to tell me id hate him.. i couldnt think of it.. but i think some1 told me the reason.. not sure if its the right reason but... im disapointed but ... not much to hate.. but still...

"disapointed " is sucha.... hurtful word...

vinhs used it twice on me... the first time bcos of the sleepover incident with looking dead at service.. and the other one tonite :

Cho: " what IF she really does go-out with him "
Vinh: -look at me- " then id be truthfully and truely disapointed "

i know whatever i say wont work ? but i know nothing will happpen, but i guess he still doesnt believe me.

im tired.. but i cant get to sleep so im prob just babbling on, maybe you should stop reading this, bcos its just completely nothing...

merry 2o1o

omgosh i have a lot to say... but i dont have much time..

hehe i realised how precious interent was since i went to korea ( seoul ) & hk... lol

ummmm, wow its 2o1o hehh... new new years resolution. i think mine last yr was, to be good and not get into relo problems but i got owned and didnt suceed in 2009 so now ima gna be super mature and make a resolution worth keeping even for longer than a year

" to value family times " i learnt taht ... every single time i see my grandparents my heart aches inside knowing i dont spend enough time or memories with them.. and they have no gurantee that next time i come back theyd still be healthy and well...

i remember an oldie once told me to value the family time for dindin and anithing else with ur famfam bcos... he doesnt get much time to spend to sit down and have dindin with his animore..

and plus with my grandpapas & grandmamas, i dont wanna imagine not having them around.
bcos im lucky to still have all 4 of my grandparents still here :) they have so much love to give to us everysingle time we come back, its heartbreaking to know they WAIT 2 years every single dae just to see us, and here we are cruising along and only remembering them when they send of easter or xmas cards...

sooo, heres a thank you & i loveyou shout out to famfams of all shapes, sizes, ages and types

merry 2010 :)

ydaeydae, ydae, todae

im glad you called to wake me in the morning... even tho i was super tired... and my voice was corse, i wanted to know how it went...

im glad you told me it was " interesting " bcos it wasnt awkward... or anything. it was straightforward... i hope.

im glad you planned it out so yous will have space.

But truthfully, knowing was kinda very painful... because felt like i didnt know if i should talk to yous about it.

ydae & ydaeydae was pretty epic.

ydaeydae
all that guitar/dj/band hero-ing, movies,KK, robert cak-ing and everything.

thanks N for all that ~ and everyone else for making it sucha speshial xmas & in K+my case , NYE aswell xP

even tho it was super painful sleeping on the floor it was fun altogether :)

ydae
waking up to a berryV felt so good... but we wer all smashed.. (H+K+I+N+A+me)

V told us off for all the right reasons, but even at the end of the dae i still felt sad. :C
buy yehh... oh wells :) bcos even bigA sed: if its all over now, then no need to be unhappy :)

todae
needa pack.. bcos i havent started.. kinda dont wanna... but i guess i alwaes feel this way before i leave. so exhausted.. dont wanna move.. still watching tv ( gong sum gai ) hehe

aniwaessssssssss. nothing to say. bubbbies :)

quickfastforward/rundown

quick fast forward, bcos i havent blogged in a while xP

grad wasnt great. but vinhhhhh + nayfun + kenken came , so i guess they made the dae alot better :)

then we had thai food with alice+ anfunny , and A+V+N+K & me went to watch " invention of lying"

yuhp yuhp fastforward...

me&anfunny wer planning to watch moovies at his place, but couldnt bcos mothers cannot comprehend that a girl & a boy in a house can just be frends/siblings...

my goodness...

ummmm fast forward agenn ...

wer doing KK ( kris kringle ) omgosh, i dont get why they dont call it CC ( CHRIS cringle ? ) like CHRIStmas? but watever lol

& hannah helped me decide i was gna do a scrapbook... and now im in a mess lost in all these fotos of " K " bcos yehh...

man sometimes i think to myself.. omgosh i feel lke a stalker.. having soo many fotos printed off of him.. hmm i wonder if the photo lady thought i was insane.. or like in love with him or something..
ehwww LOL

anyway.. i got myself into this messs so yehh...

well tomorrow is the big dae. the dae that the hsc results come out :)

how excitable... but im kinda anxious as well... in two years taht me .. heh

but more anxious bcos im worried for some odd reason they made not get the marks they deserve or hoped to get... but iloveyoubros & i pray for the best !

i want to be spammed with text in the morning or called liek crazy bcos yous have GOOD news to tell me.. but ill cry with you if anything goes wrong, bcos i promised id probably be equally devistated..

heres my rundown of my life atm... lol felt like i was jotting them down bcos im scared id forget but hey ;) my brains too important to remember little things like my past

peace & im out !

refreshing

omgoodness, according to a certain somebody i havent posted since camp xP

welllll ; camp .. was fun. lol lets keep it that way. alotta silly things happend.. things wer done very irresponsibly but thats okay. part of the atmosphere of camp :)

a couple of daes ago, i was singing... " who am i " in the shower. & i realised.. even at church.. we have trends of songs we sing

usually bcos of the tune. sometimes becos of the lyrics... but the lyrics and music get numb and boring after a while.. so we move on to new ones..

but the thing that hit me the hardest was :

everytime i sit in silent and think about those lyrics... and put my heart into praising the almighty GOD.... i cry.. on the inside and out.

" who am i , that the LORD OF ALLL THE EARTH .. will CARE TO KNOW MY NAME !? "

His sooo wonderful... but sometimes He feels like a trend... just something we do. Ive felt a while ago... the burning and urge to serve Him in everyway.. but now i honestly admit... ive lost it.

kinda tired out.

But thats hopefully gna change soon... i wanna be motivated for the RIGHT THINGS FOR THE RIGHT REASON..

but as they say: " if u dont know how it feels to be negative, youd never recongise the positive when it hits you "

so thanks to the ppl who stuck with / put up with me even when things fell super downhill lately... your the frends i dont deserve

iloveyous....