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널 좋아해요, 하지만 저는 너가 나를 안좋아하는것을 알아요.

watever, im delete-ing you now

im delete-ing you forever. bcos everytime something doesnt work out i delete you off msn.

so i wouldnt be tempted to talk to you again.. i even deleted you off my fone so i wouldnt be tempted to say sorry homo.

but its not working >< bcos u keep texting me and it lingers in my inbox and i dont wanna delete the text..

bcos i alwaes fall for your sorrys... then i let it go. but its not working out ><

everytime you get distracted when we talk ? it kills that little bit more inside... i dont want that animore. you used to be the listener. and now ... its just falling apart.

i dont have the courage to tell it to your face.. so i guess its gna be another " backing away then eventually fall outta touch situations' happens to all the relos i regret. but weve fixed it once, i guess its already my personal best

waaah. its been long.

omfg... i havent blogged in a while...

im very mixed atm. frendships became very vague to me.

my definition is : a person you know. that is a frend to me.

but frends come in different levels yeh ? i mean..intimacy. i mean you wouldnt go to a randomdom and tel them. hey man, im hurt-ing soo much inside. pleaaaaase help me :O

i mean.. i think youd never make another frend whod take yous sersly if you did :O

but yehhh~ its so confusing. and some frends you think. yehh things are pretty ckoool. everythings pat down. then other complications arise. (wow i sound so smart hehe)

ummm. i hate drawing lines. bcos theres never a line thats straight soo much confusion requrieed/created/ watever.

i wished i never knew waht you tolod me... bcos noww i havta back off and keep a distance bcos i dont wanna be in the middle of YOUR muddle and make things more complicating for you ... ><
but ur suppose to be my (synonym to best)frend...

i miss you :( i really do.

forever? psht

mmmmmm, very distracted in every way. ooops.

" Im glad wer still close like before " he says.

" I wonder what will happen if we got angry at each other , would this end ? " i say

" We wont get angry at each other. but if we do, id cry" he says

dont wanna be pessimistic maaang, but when you expect forever, it kinda doessssnt really work taht way..

lucky God is forever without a doubt. -phewwwf- loveloveloveYou God&Jesus&Mr.Holy Spirit

hmmm~ on a more serial note: discipleship, & china.. i know... camp aint suppose to be about funfunfun... but... i can imagine hwo gay its gna be without very important ppl who make the camps awsome :) & with china... i dont think im ready. i want it to be something i do when im really ready & i can do it whole heartedly and just wanna BURST AND HELP PPL :D but right now, im not quite there yet even on the maturity levels. I hope they have fun & learn alot about serving ppls but :o

puts a smile to my face when i hear how others have realised theyve showd a little bit og God in their lives ; tehee..

OMFISHINGGORSH, i needa do my speech... fml

hehee.. finding every single excuse not to do it... even PLAYING THE PIANO before it .. wtf..

okokay concentrate! bubbbies -lovelove-

fml

ttm

pierc-ings & alice in wonderland !

yaaaaay~ alice in wonderland :) excitable ? yes

ummm, pierc-ing. marmie approved ofcourse ! she sed: if i let you get this one, your gna want to get more and more...

damn straight ! but thats a little later when your a softy about it all agens.

teheee. right now im happy with the deal i made with you!

life sucks balls ALL the time.

im trying really hard i promise...

seems like a tonn of bricks just fell on top of me. now i finally knnow how humpty dumpty felt when he fell off that wall... he broke his head, but i broke my heart.

at least his head was hollow, so he didnt loose much. but yehh...

" its sad when ppl you know bcome pple you knew, when you can walk right past some1 like they wer never a big patr of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. its sad how times change"

life sucks balls all the time...

i guess whn you take some1s love for granted, you loose a lot more than you expect. but, i hope its just some stupid phase, bcos ive realised life without some1 like you to make me dae IS really dull...

and waiting eevrydae for you to make my dae sure ruins every other dae you dont turn up.