first daes are excitable 8P

todae is the first dae of yr11,
no matter how dashing everyone looks in our new senior white shirts, somethings just not right xD

maybe bcos wer still sooo immature we dont deserve the white shirts, but finally we feel like a famfam speeding towards the same goal. HSC heh Lol

but watver :) 8) soo exciting ive got goals this yr ! bubbbbbies sweetdreams all xoxo

genuinelaughter(LOVEPHSHOMIIES)

i dunro if i had a good time todae or not...

at first it was all innocent.. then some EFFING PMS SHITFACE ruined it all... im still angry.. but i did mean the apology i gave to him...

bcos it was alll a misunderstanding...

jigged to strath todae... long story.. dont wanna go into details...

but the later part was good :)

not all the karaoke and being stuck in the room with ppl smoking.. and 10 guys singing their hearts out and blowing out our ear drums..

but catching the train back with S+Z+F and meet with F+SE+C

even sittin at the foodcourt at blacktown... and playing.. " stab/shoot , shag marry " with the guys.. using teachers, fellow students & ugly ppl who happened to be walking by or sitting around.

haha.. aww i love you guys.. bcos this time.. it was genuine laughter.. and for real.. we couldnt stop laughing... felt soo fuzzzy... felt like yr7 all over agen..

just some of us are leaving next yr.. some more rememberd than others...

i still havent decided if i wanan cry or smile ... if i should write a card to say goodbye? or just suck it up and pretend i dont care

but jigging todae.. will be the last memory of "us" and im truely glad we went :)

whitechristmasINSEOUL!

todae, like every other dae. was no big suprise. but as the year comes to an end, everything in the present seems to blur as we backtrack the memories we inprinted in our heads thruout the year.

the sad, the happy, the spastic, the tough, the scary, the best, the sweetest ones all playing thru like a movie of just 2009 in itself.

i think it was only ydae, i wished for a white christmas... ive had one..in Japan but i was 4 & i think that its a litttttle too long ago for me to remember it clearly.

i even discussed the possibility of having a white christmas was someone :) i told him could i just go:

" hey dadddy, could you buy me a snow cloud for my present? so i could have snow of christmas? " ... but then he went.. your a noobie. and my dreams wer shattered..


(hehe only kidddddding) * i wasnt reallly shattered* but it was a good idea aye ;)

but MY WISH DID COME TRUE ~ even tho it wasnt my 11/11 11:11 wish... but it is! bcos ME IS GO SEOUL FOR WHITE CHRISTMAS BABY ~ but that means... julina spends half her birfdae at seuol... and the other half on the plane with maybe an hour in hk ...

but at least id getta spend my NYE with very speshial ppl, counting down into 2010 !

YOUrflawlesstoME

My haert still skips a beat when your on, happy to talk to you even after all we've been thru. I still notice your display name change and the little notices you post out, pretending it was ever about me. Sometimes i trick myself into thinking we still have something in common, even believing sometimes your posts are hidden responses to mine.

Sometimes i slap myself in the head because i know i should know better, but lately, after knowing i'll never see you everydae again... i wished i treaused every moment of our years.. because its NOW that i realised, even if we were never close, id still get to see you and be with you everyday.

When I had you, it was hard to believe because you seemed so perfect and so admirable but as time passed, i even believed i deserved you. How silly am I.. because i definately didnt. I thought after it all, you hated me. but even when i look back now, i still dunro why we fell out of love, because there was not even a moment i hated you. I hated myself for being so ignorant and so relunctant to show you my true feelings because in a way, i was scared i was just being played.

I still notice everything about you, but then i believed that was just me holding onto my past and loving who i thought was you, but not until now, i realised you notice me too. Because when we talk, you arent outdated by what happens around me, we still talked asif we never fell apart. You still talk to the people around me, but everytime i see you in person, i feel your cold-shoulder. My brain tells me its over because how could someone act so differently all the time, but my heart still lies to me. My heart still loves you and my heart still longs for you to tell me you love me too.

But now, while loving you, i think of someoneelse. Because im moving on, well... so it seems. Todae, unexpectly i overheard a quote: " When you love some1 you overlook all their flaws no matter what they are. " The person i claim to be thinking of now? im digging up his flaws, so i guess i still havent relearnt how to love yet. Because suprisingly when i heard this, my heart thought of you... because no matter how many flaws ppl dig up to describe you, i can only concentrate on all the good things youve done for me. <3