YOUrflawlesstoME

My haert still skips a beat when your on, happy to talk to you even after all we've been thru. I still notice your display name change and the little notices you post out, pretending it was ever about me. Sometimes i trick myself into thinking we still have something in common, even believing sometimes your posts are hidden responses to mine.

Sometimes i slap myself in the head because i know i should know better, but lately, after knowing i'll never see you everydae again... i wished i treaused every moment of our years.. because its NOW that i realised, even if we were never close, id still get to see you and be with you everyday.

When I had you, it was hard to believe because you seemed so perfect and so admirable but as time passed, i even believed i deserved you. How silly am I.. because i definately didnt. I thought after it all, you hated me. but even when i look back now, i still dunro why we fell out of love, because there was not even a moment i hated you. I hated myself for being so ignorant and so relunctant to show you my true feelings because in a way, i was scared i was just being played.

I still notice everything about you, but then i believed that was just me holding onto my past and loving who i thought was you, but not until now, i realised you notice me too. Because when we talk, you arent outdated by what happens around me, we still talked asif we never fell apart. You still talk to the people around me, but everytime i see you in person, i feel your cold-shoulder. My brain tells me its over because how could someone act so differently all the time, but my heart still lies to me. My heart still loves you and my heart still longs for you to tell me you love me too.

But now, while loving you, i think of someoneelse. Because im moving on, well... so it seems. Todae, unexpectly i overheard a quote: " When you love some1 you overlook all their flaws no matter what they are. " The person i claim to be thinking of now? im digging up his flaws, so i guess i still havent relearnt how to love yet. Because suprisingly when i heard this, my heart thought of you... because no matter how many flaws ppl dig up to describe you, i can only concentrate on all the good things youve done for me. <3