ydaeydae, ydae, todae

im glad you called to wake me in the morning... even tho i was super tired... and my voice was corse, i wanted to know how it went...

im glad you told me it was " interesting " bcos it wasnt awkward... or anything. it was straightforward... i hope.

im glad you planned it out so yous will have space.

But truthfully, knowing was kinda very painful... because felt like i didnt know if i should talk to yous about it.

ydae & ydaeydae was pretty epic.

ydaeydae
all that guitar/dj/band hero-ing, movies,KK, robert cak-ing and everything.

thanks N for all that ~ and everyone else for making it sucha speshial xmas & in K+my case , NYE aswell xP

even tho it was super painful sleeping on the floor it was fun altogether :)

ydae
waking up to a berryV felt so good... but we wer all smashed.. (H+K+I+N+A+me)

V told us off for all the right reasons, but even at the end of the dae i still felt sad. :C
buy yehh... oh wells :) bcos even bigA sed: if its all over now, then no need to be unhappy :)

todae
needa pack.. bcos i havent started.. kinda dont wanna... but i guess i alwaes feel this way before i leave. so exhausted.. dont wanna move.. still watching tv ( gong sum gai ) hehe

aniwaessssssssss. nothing to say. bubbbies :)

quickfastforward/rundown

quick fast forward, bcos i havent blogged in a while xP

grad wasnt great. but vinhhhhh + nayfun + kenken came , so i guess they made the dae alot better :)

then we had thai food with alice+ anfunny , and A+V+N+K & me went to watch " invention of lying"

yuhp yuhp fastforward...

me&anfunny wer planning to watch moovies at his place, but couldnt bcos mothers cannot comprehend that a girl & a boy in a house can just be frends/siblings...

my goodness...

ummmm fast forward agenn ...

wer doing KK ( kris kringle ) omgosh, i dont get why they dont call it CC ( CHRIS cringle ? ) like CHRIStmas? but watever lol

& hannah helped me decide i was gna do a scrapbook... and now im in a mess lost in all these fotos of " K " bcos yehh...

man sometimes i think to myself.. omgosh i feel lke a stalker.. having soo many fotos printed off of him.. hmm i wonder if the photo lady thought i was insane.. or like in love with him or something..
ehwww LOL

anyway.. i got myself into this messs so yehh...

well tomorrow is the big dae. the dae that the hsc results come out :)

how excitable... but im kinda anxious as well... in two years taht me .. heh

but more anxious bcos im worried for some odd reason they made not get the marks they deserve or hoped to get... but iloveyoubros & i pray for the best !

i want to be spammed with text in the morning or called liek crazy bcos yous have GOOD news to tell me.. but ill cry with you if anything goes wrong, bcos i promised id probably be equally devistated..

heres my rundown of my life atm... lol felt like i was jotting them down bcos im scared id forget but hey ;) my brains too important to remember little things like my past

peace & im out !

genuinelaughter(LOVEPHSHOMIIES)

i dunro if i had a good time todae or not...

at first it was all innocent.. then some EFFING PMS SHITFACE ruined it all... im still angry.. but i did mean the apology i gave to him...

bcos it was alll a misunderstanding...

jigged to strath todae... long story.. dont wanna go into details...

but the later part was good :)

not all the karaoke and being stuck in the room with ppl smoking.. and 10 guys singing their hearts out and blowing out our ear drums..

but catching the train back with S+Z+F and meet with F+SE+C

even sittin at the foodcourt at blacktown... and playing.. " stab/shoot , shag marry " with the guys.. using teachers, fellow students & ugly ppl who happened to be walking by or sitting around.

haha.. aww i love you guys.. bcos this time.. it was genuine laughter.. and for real.. we couldnt stop laughing... felt soo fuzzzy... felt like yr7 all over agen..

just some of us are leaving next yr.. some more rememberd than others...

i still havent decided if i wanan cry or smile ... if i should write a card to say goodbye? or just suck it up and pretend i dont care

but jigging todae.. will be the last memory of "us" and im truely glad we went :)

refreshing

omgoodness, according to a certain somebody i havent posted since camp xP

welllll ; camp .. was fun. lol lets keep it that way. alotta silly things happend.. things wer done very irresponsibly but thats okay. part of the atmosphere of camp :)

a couple of daes ago, i was singing... " who am i " in the shower. & i realised.. even at church.. we have trends of songs we sing

usually bcos of the tune. sometimes becos of the lyrics... but the lyrics and music get numb and boring after a while.. so we move on to new ones..

but the thing that hit me the hardest was :

everytime i sit in silent and think about those lyrics... and put my heart into praising the almighty GOD.... i cry.. on the inside and out.

" who am i , that the LORD OF ALLL THE EARTH .. will CARE TO KNOW MY NAME !? "

His sooo wonderful... but sometimes He feels like a trend... just something we do. Ive felt a while ago... the burning and urge to serve Him in everyway.. but now i honestly admit... ive lost it.

kinda tired out.

But thats hopefully gna change soon... i wanna be motivated for the RIGHT THINGS FOR THE RIGHT REASON..

but as they say: " if u dont know how it feels to be negative, youd never recongise the positive when it hits you "

so thanks to the ppl who stuck with / put up with me even when things fell super downhill lately... your the frends i dont deserve

iloveyous....