ydaeydae, ydae, todae

im glad you called to wake me in the morning... even tho i was super tired... and my voice was corse, i wanted to know how it went...

im glad you told me it was " interesting " bcos it wasnt awkward... or anything. it was straightforward... i hope.

im glad you planned it out so yous will have space.

But truthfully, knowing was kinda very painful... because felt like i didnt know if i should talk to yous about it.

ydae & ydaeydae was pretty epic.

ydaeydae
all that guitar/dj/band hero-ing, movies,KK, robert cak-ing and everything.

thanks N for all that ~ and everyone else for making it sucha speshial xmas & in K+my case , NYE aswell xP

even tho it was super painful sleeping on the floor it was fun altogether :)

ydae
waking up to a berryV felt so good... but we wer all smashed.. (H+K+I+N+A+me)

V told us off for all the right reasons, but even at the end of the dae i still felt sad. :C
buy yehh... oh wells :) bcos even bigA sed: if its all over now, then no need to be unhappy :)

todae
needa pack.. bcos i havent started.. kinda dont wanna... but i guess i alwaes feel this way before i leave. so exhausted.. dont wanna move.. still watching tv ( gong sum gai ) hehe

aniwaessssssssss. nothing to say. bubbbies :)

quickfastforward/rundown

quick fast forward, bcos i havent blogged in a while xP

grad wasnt great. but vinhhhhh + nayfun + kenken came , so i guess they made the dae alot better :)

then we had thai food with alice+ anfunny , and A+V+N+K & me went to watch " invention of lying"

yuhp yuhp fastforward...

me&anfunny wer planning to watch moovies at his place, but couldnt bcos mothers cannot comprehend that a girl & a boy in a house can just be frends/siblings...

my goodness...

ummmm fast forward agenn ...

wer doing KK ( kris kringle ) omgosh, i dont get why they dont call it CC ( CHRIS cringle ? ) like CHRIStmas? but watever lol

& hannah helped me decide i was gna do a scrapbook... and now im in a mess lost in all these fotos of " K " bcos yehh...

man sometimes i think to myself.. omgosh i feel lke a stalker.. having soo many fotos printed off of him.. hmm i wonder if the photo lady thought i was insane.. or like in love with him or something..
ehwww LOL

anyway.. i got myself into this messs so yehh...

well tomorrow is the big dae. the dae that the hsc results come out :)

how excitable... but im kinda anxious as well... in two years taht me .. heh

but more anxious bcos im worried for some odd reason they made not get the marks they deserve or hoped to get... but iloveyoubros & i pray for the best !

i want to be spammed with text in the morning or called liek crazy bcos yous have GOOD news to tell me.. but ill cry with you if anything goes wrong, bcos i promised id probably be equally devistated..

heres my rundown of my life atm... lol felt like i was jotting them down bcos im scared id forget but hey ;) my brains too important to remember little things like my past

peace & im out !

genuinelaughter(LOVEPHSHOMIIES)

i dunro if i had a good time todae or not...

at first it was all innocent.. then some EFFING PMS SHITFACE ruined it all... im still angry.. but i did mean the apology i gave to him...

bcos it was alll a misunderstanding...

jigged to strath todae... long story.. dont wanna go into details...

but the later part was good :)

not all the karaoke and being stuck in the room with ppl smoking.. and 10 guys singing their hearts out and blowing out our ear drums..

but catching the train back with S+Z+F and meet with F+SE+C

even sittin at the foodcourt at blacktown... and playing.. " stab/shoot , shag marry " with the guys.. using teachers, fellow students & ugly ppl who happened to be walking by or sitting around.

haha.. aww i love you guys.. bcos this time.. it was genuine laughter.. and for real.. we couldnt stop laughing... felt soo fuzzzy... felt like yr7 all over agen..

just some of us are leaving next yr.. some more rememberd than others...

i still havent decided if i wanan cry or smile ... if i should write a card to say goodbye? or just suck it up and pretend i dont care

but jigging todae.. will be the last memory of "us" and im truely glad we went :)

refreshing

omgoodness, according to a certain somebody i havent posted since camp xP

welllll ; camp .. was fun. lol lets keep it that way. alotta silly things happend.. things wer done very irresponsibly but thats okay. part of the atmosphere of camp :)

a couple of daes ago, i was singing... " who am i " in the shower. & i realised.. even at church.. we have trends of songs we sing

usually bcos of the tune. sometimes becos of the lyrics... but the lyrics and music get numb and boring after a while.. so we move on to new ones..

but the thing that hit me the hardest was :

everytime i sit in silent and think about those lyrics... and put my heart into praising the almighty GOD.... i cry.. on the inside and out.

" who am i , that the LORD OF ALLL THE EARTH .. will CARE TO KNOW MY NAME !? "

His sooo wonderful... but sometimes He feels like a trend... just something we do. Ive felt a while ago... the burning and urge to serve Him in everyway.. but now i honestly admit... ive lost it.

kinda tired out.

But thats hopefully gna change soon... i wanna be motivated for the RIGHT THINGS FOR THE RIGHT REASON..

but as they say: " if u dont know how it feels to be negative, youd never recongise the positive when it hits you "

so thanks to the ppl who stuck with / put up with me even when things fell super downhill lately... your the frends i dont deserve

iloveyous....

tonsillitis

i guess i was lazy...

sore throat... julinas a big girl.. her body can handle it

its just a funny flu ... julina can handle it..

oh maybe she cant.

now the doctor says : " you have tonsillitis "

DAMMMNIT . :'( waaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

MUM: she has came in a couple of daes, would she be able to go ?

DOC: mmmmm, best not to.. but if she recovers before that.. then she may go

is she bloody kidding? if ur on antibiotics, DUH U WONT RECOVER IN TWO DAES. THATS WHY THEY MADE THE COURSE BLOODY 7 DAES !

aaaaaaaah. i dunro if i should even by groceries / pack tomorrow.... this is the last camp ever.. and for once? i was kinda excited ! :?(<>

i wanna buy the swimmers i saw ydae... but now.. mum said an absolute "no" bcos even IF i go to camp... i WONT be swimming.. i WONT be doing active outdoor activities..

maybe ill just draw sad faces in the sand at the beach :(

todaes the 30NOV... i hate todae :(

stalker-ishing:O

my goodness, searching for my fone for the entire morning reminded me of a quite creepy incident that happend to me last week.

but C wouldnt stop laughing at me about it , bcos he thinks it completely hilarious that im getting stalker-ed. its kinda scary.

So the story goes : we were all in a big computer lab together bcos we wer doing stuff, and we wer all kinda talking.

scenario one
C : hey J(me) you going to the afterparty at T's yeh ?
J: mmmm i dunro , dont think so... *playing with fone*
C: ohh really ? it'll be heaps fun, ppl hooking up.. getting drunk haha. lol ;) *also playing with fone*
J: hmm, yeh.. how about you K ?
K: umm, yehh, i dunro depending on P
P: im going to F's .. bcos T + F live like on the ends of the road, so we can just crash both !
D(the stalker): yehh my house is in between you guys can come crash if you like!

-no1 asked him.. where did he come from !? C shoots eye contact at J-

scenario two
-everyones just standing around the table talking-

J: C, i just realised i dont have you number after getting my fone :\
C: heres mine, and you can gimme yours?
J: why ... dont i type it in your fone...? -doesnt want D to hear-

-yeps , constant talking in between nothing speshial-

D(stalker): HEYY J ! -types number into his fone- heres mine -pushes fone towards J-
J: ummm
C: laughing in his eyecontact to J
J: i havta go... make a call :) bbl~
C: -awkward look at D, then turns away-
Scenario 3
nothing bigggie, but its like he sits infronta the comp and waits for J to go online...

the moment Js online, .... " HEY J "

Scenario 4
-happens at least... 5-7 times a school dae-
everytime i walk about to somewhere alone...
-springs outta nowhere-
D: HI *waves*

Scenario 5
D: HEY ! you going to the formal? you going with ne1?
J: hey. um yeh kinda going with everyone :)
D: ohhh i see. the formal is quite important to me..
J: umm.. its JUST the yr10 one bro
D: its the last dae ill see everyone
J: your leaving ~!?
D: oh just going overseas

-yaaaaaaaaaaaay his going overseas ! no more stalkering for the next 2-3 weeks !-

then.. sees him at skool the next week.. -wtfreak T_____________T-

Scenario 6
D: remember how you were talking to me last nite ?
J: ummm... no?
-K+C+P walk past & gives J this weird look-
-J signals "save me"-
K: he means .. when he was talking to himself

Scenario 7
-in a new maths classs-
C: -reacting the D giving J his number scene to P+S- :J, his my number
P: omgosh, doesnt he like stalk you ?
J: HOW DID YOU KNOW !?
P: you told me
J: oh :\
P+C: PLUS everyone knows ! LOL
J: wtfreakk.... :( continues with her maths hiding the shame.

Scencario 8
everytime we sit on the train, whether its express/ slow train
hed alwaes sit a couple of seats nearby or in the corner of the carriage.
just by himself looking into the crowd..

this all started with my kind side popping up one dae & deciding to make the effort to just say hi / wave at him ONCE & this results in stalkering...

NEWTHINGS :)

Lalalala~ feel like i wanna say something, not quite sure waht it is... so here goes nothing :)

New things are exciting, waiting for things are boring. But when you get that thing/event/person coming up ? your less excited. when youve got it, its nice & new and MAYBE even confusing for a while, but later? its JUST another thing youve got.

heres an example : me&a super close bro of mine were texting like nearly everydae of the christmassy / nye-y typa peirod til like heaps late every nite & it was coming close to my birfdae !

we wer super excited on boxing dae and even the dae after, listing allllll the wishes / presents / crazy things we could do together when skool started agen. but when it came close to midnight ? i was kinda disapointedly sad ? & he understood why ( hehe bcos his awsome )

when it comes to your birfdae, youd get millions of text messages, maybe heaps of presents, a nice cake.. ppl who dont talk to you will suddenly wanna be your frend, and youd be flooded with kisses & hugs ( all these things are tremendous & beautiful & awsome )

but the moment its 00:01 AM its no longer YOUR time to shine, could be anyone, BUT you ?
birfdaes are fabulous, but its just like everyone brings your hopes up into the sky and then it drops like a rollercoaster that doesnt come back up agen the next dae.

wow, i think i just made birfdae sound so sadd, but yehh :)

thats how i felt last yr. bcos on my birfdae it just felt like any other dae, & im not so sure what a birfdae is suppose to feel like animore. i dont remember xP