omgosh its christmas eve tomroorw and it doesnt feel christmas.. oh dear :/
last christmas is stil very warm&fuzzy in my mind (: this dae last yr i would be ... in korea just flown there & be going out agen... nagawww miss it ! >:C
soo lazy didnt even put up the tree this yr.. loosing the christmas spirit ): sighfish..
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
dear you,
i thought it was inevitable that i'll never see you on a pedestal after waht you did to A. but after todae, i almost forgot and i still hoped for you to fit in and become and understand another part of my world. im shy around you, bcos in a while wer still too civil to be good frends, but it changes. at least im not nervous to talk to you animore. but im suprised that i actually didnt see you in a different light. or maybe its jsut bcos i dont know you well enouugh. its inevitable that when A is around things mite be seen differently, but during this time while he wont be? i hope it leaves us time to be better frends :) bcos i want to build a real frendship with you and not just bcos your a frend of some1 that is dear to me even tho somehow you did hurt him as a frend too.
theres some gap that i cant quite locate, its like i dont feel totally at ease when we hang out. but heeey~ i hope we'll fix that :)
theres some gap that i cant quite locate, its like i dont feel totally at ease when we hang out. but heeey~ i hope we'll fix that :)
Friday, December 3, 2010
ilybro:)
someone once said : boy & girl bestfrends dont work until yovue liked each other and talked about it and gotten over it.
after todae, i think :) im ready to be bestfrends agen <3 how you talked about girlfie? hehe i can tell your in it for reals this time :) the way you said : "im going to see my girlfie" hehehe made me smile bcos of your chessynesss :P ilybro :) and you make me smile everytime you visit mee ^^ even just todae :D gaa~ you make me laugh. you can be sucha dick sometimes... and i mentally stab you in my brain, but then i just love how your soo lame <3
no matter how many times ppl tell me your not a good influence? idkare.. bcos every other time..they told me some1 was crap for me ? theyd come back 3 years later.. and tell me.. his fkrn mad afterall..
and im like OMGOSHH.. but i giggle inside but through all the sadfish things, i secretly knew ;)
ilyyyyy <3 in a non-gross way ;)
after todae, i think :) im ready to be bestfrends agen <3 how you talked about girlfie? hehe i can tell your in it for reals this time :) the way you said : "im going to see my girlfie" hehehe made me smile bcos of your chessynesss :P ilybro :) and you make me smile everytime you visit mee ^^ even just todae :D gaa~ you make me laugh. you can be sucha dick sometimes... and i mentally stab you in my brain, but then i just love how your soo lame <3
no matter how many times ppl tell me your not a good influence? idkare.. bcos every other time..they told me some1 was crap for me ? theyd come back 3 years later.. and tell me.. his fkrn mad afterall..
and im like OMGOSHH.. but i giggle inside but through all the sadfish things, i secretly knew ;)
ilyyyyy <3 in a non-gross way ;)
Saturday, November 27, 2010
im sorry
im sorry that now everytime we talk its less and less exciting, less and less silly & memorable.
i dont think its called growing up but more like wer getting tired.
i used to alwaes brag about how ive got this really amazing frend.. that puts up with me and never flinches when i get angry... and alwaes lets be have my way even when it makes no sense. but the more weve thought about things and sed the things that used to be magically left unsaid, i realised... it ruins the frendship.
i guess i used to be the ignorant one in this frendship and now that waht i used to say to you or do to you wasnt very nice of me, ive changed to become a frend that deserves you. But it jst means the memories weve had wont repeat itself bcos our frendship is no longer pure.
now.. i havta think about things before i tell you.. and now i have worry whether youd be too busy to hear about my dae or even if your too busy sorting some1elses problems. i guess ive learnt to be less selfish from you, but at the same time, lost a frend i used to tell everything too :/ now we keep secrets to keep our distance and sometimes, im scared you judge me.
funny huh? we used to talk everydae and never realise what we say but still have a great time. Now, your just like any other... you may ring and i mite get tired or we'll just sit there in silence in our seperate mindsets. i dunro how to keep you away bcos youve meant soo much to me over the yrs, but im scared if we go on like this.. we'll eventually become hi bye frends. i dont have teh guts to tell you this in person bcos i know id end up in tears. i hope you never read this, or even if u find this, you wouldnt know its you. but i needed to let this out.. bcos tonite i just felt like i was distracting you from waht you really wnan achieve in life & thats just too selfish of me
when things used to be simple for me, it probably caused you much pain and time and patience.. but thankss for being that frend... but i dont think i quite deserve someone like you.
i dont think its called growing up but more like wer getting tired.
i used to alwaes brag about how ive got this really amazing frend.. that puts up with me and never flinches when i get angry... and alwaes lets be have my way even when it makes no sense. but the more weve thought about things and sed the things that used to be magically left unsaid, i realised... it ruins the frendship.
i guess i used to be the ignorant one in this frendship and now that waht i used to say to you or do to you wasnt very nice of me, ive changed to become a frend that deserves you. But it jst means the memories weve had wont repeat itself bcos our frendship is no longer pure.
now.. i havta think about things before i tell you.. and now i have worry whether youd be too busy to hear about my dae or even if your too busy sorting some1elses problems. i guess ive learnt to be less selfish from you, but at the same time, lost a frend i used to tell everything too :/ now we keep secrets to keep our distance and sometimes, im scared you judge me.
funny huh? we used to talk everydae and never realise what we say but still have a great time. Now, your just like any other... you may ring and i mite get tired or we'll just sit there in silence in our seperate mindsets. i dunro how to keep you away bcos youve meant soo much to me over the yrs, but im scared if we go on like this.. we'll eventually become hi bye frends. i dont have teh guts to tell you this in person bcos i know id end up in tears. i hope you never read this, or even if u find this, you wouldnt know its you. but i needed to let this out.. bcos tonite i just felt like i was distracting you from waht you really wnan achieve in life & thats just too selfish of me
when things used to be simple for me, it probably caused you much pain and time and patience.. but thankss for being that frend... but i dont think i quite deserve someone like you.
Monday, November 22, 2010
inevitable:)
my judgements prettty off but thats okay >:]
mmm~ ydae i realised that " the oldest cliches are the most powerful & are most true "
i mean, if theyre so cheese and everyone hates them, why are they being passed on for soo many generations? its bcos the ugliest things the hardest to say at teh most true.
like; if the old doesnt go, how will the new come?
inevitablly perceptions change, but wer trying to control that :)
mmm~ ydae i realised that " the oldest cliches are the most powerful & are most true "
i mean, if theyre so cheese and everyone hates them, why are they being passed on for soo many generations? its bcos the ugliest things the hardest to say at teh most true.
like; if the old doesnt go, how will the new come?
inevitablly perceptions change, but wer trying to control that :)
Sunday, November 21, 2010
precious
why was it easier last time to fix things up ? :/ when this time should be oh so more easier ? :/ why is it that this time i dnt wanan be wrong but last time, i knew i was right but sed i was wrong bcos we btoh really needed this :/ weirddd
aniwaesss~
well todae was oshys baptism :) im very proud of him.. but i didnt celebrate with him..
we shouldve done so much more to make it so much more speshial.. but we didnt... are we not such awseome frends or waht :/ ?
ilhim to bitsss but when i hugs him bubbies he told me that " thanks for being such an amazing frend" and my haert sunk :c bcos all these yrs we didnt talk.. we didnt experience those christian traumas in his walk together.. and he still thinks im an amazing frend....
your so precious oshy <3 and i hope we'll be BIC & SIC alwaes
aniwaesss~
well todae was oshys baptism :) im very proud of him.. but i didnt celebrate with him..
we shouldve done so much more to make it so much more speshial.. but we didnt... are we not such awseome frends or waht :/ ?
ilhim to bitsss but when i hugs him bubbies he told me that " thanks for being such an amazing frend" and my haert sunk :c bcos all these yrs we didnt talk.. we didnt experience those christian traumas in his walk together.. and he still thinks im an amazing frend....
your so precious oshy <3 and i hope we'll be BIC & SIC alwaes
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
im just being selfish
Growing up gets to the point where you understand when to walk away from things your frends are doing to make sure your still directing yourself down the right path.
the hsc is about support and achiev ing all our dreams, indirectly a portion of your dream is in the hands on all the people sittin around you, and so are theres in yours. rememeber to support even when others are keeping it to themselves.
some maybe academic but mostly its just emotionally.
maybe im jst bloodly blind, but theres soo mch bitching amongst our grade going on atm... i dont get it. isnt now the time when everything dies down and we bring it to the side to help each other up ? but i guess the self-centreness is really bringing us down, and showing many of the ugly sides i never wished to see.
many of us are bringing things on ourselves really just to have an accuse to break down and be sad bcos deep inside, wer all alittle scared of speeding full steam ahead in life. everything gets magnified and is just so much scarier. THe beginning of many lasts have begun amd its getting sad and tense round here...
bringing me more into jst wanting to create a space of my own. away from the school drama and even little imperfections of life long frendships outta school. but even when im in my own space, it still floats around, life long frendships becoming shallow, "secrets for my benefit", no time, no simple daes, no more jst ringing to say hi & giggles.
i dont want the : wahtchu doing, and the social civil shallow talk... i dont want the: we'll have time later to fix things up, i dont want the: im sure after all this, it'll be alright.
but hey.. thats just me being selfish.
the hsc is about support and achiev ing all our dreams, indirectly a portion of your dream is in the hands on all the people sittin around you, and so are theres in yours. rememeber to support even when others are keeping it to themselves.
some maybe academic but mostly its just emotionally.
maybe im jst bloodly blind, but theres soo mch bitching amongst our grade going on atm... i dont get it. isnt now the time when everything dies down and we bring it to the side to help each other up ? but i guess the self-centreness is really bringing us down, and showing many of the ugly sides i never wished to see.
many of us are bringing things on ourselves really just to have an accuse to break down and be sad bcos deep inside, wer all alittle scared of speeding full steam ahead in life. everything gets magnified and is just so much scarier. THe beginning of many lasts have begun amd its getting sad and tense round here...
bringing me more into jst wanting to create a space of my own. away from the school drama and even little imperfections of life long frendships outta school. but even when im in my own space, it still floats around, life long frendships becoming shallow, "secrets for my benefit", no time, no simple daes, no more jst ringing to say hi & giggles.
i dont want the : wahtchu doing, and the social civil shallow talk... i dont want the: we'll have time later to fix things up, i dont want the: im sure after all this, it'll be alright.
but hey.. thats just me being selfish.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
bymyself
maybe ive finally contronted the fact that my attendance is based on people and not waht its true should be. & if i slack off once, it feels so right to do it agen :/
bcos of yr12 ive make the change of hanging out in my room alot more and realised.. i love that im by myself bcos even if ur bored.. you can do stupid things behind the door and none of your family wil look at you like you diseased or something; but it makes me wonder, is this level of crave of personal time even healthy ?
i guess i getta find that out in the upcoming year. thought it would be hard to hangout in my room alone bcos i used to think i love being non-lonely but i obviously latter come to realise im the very oopposite. or maybe that one month we shared changed my need to depend on the entertainment from others and learn to deal with it and channel it into somethingelse. which atm, strangely is looking over work :/ weird huh?
its obviously a learning/changing stage and has come at due time bcos of teh hsc this yr and the next, the isolation would help ease me into the pattern of 'concentrating'. I honestly feel like i WANT to end up being an anti-social.. even tho i so strongly sed i don ever wanna be. But it feels so easy to do... hanging in my room, alone.. is kinda fun
bcos of yr12 ive make the change of hanging out in my room alot more and realised.. i love that im by myself bcos even if ur bored.. you can do stupid things behind the door and none of your family wil look at you like you diseased or something; but it makes me wonder, is this level of crave of personal time even healthy ?
i guess i getta find that out in the upcoming year. thought it would be hard to hangout in my room alone bcos i used to think i love being non-lonely but i obviously latter come to realise im the very oopposite. or maybe that one month we shared changed my need to depend on the entertainment from others and learn to deal with it and channel it into somethingelse. which atm, strangely is looking over work :/ weird huh?
its obviously a learning/changing stage and has come at due time bcos of teh hsc this yr and the next, the isolation would help ease me into the pattern of 'concentrating'. I honestly feel like i WANT to end up being an anti-social.. even tho i so strongly sed i don ever wanna be. But it feels so easy to do... hanging in my room, alone.. is kinda fun
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
my phone is a time capsule
"why did we say goodbye? bcos lightning don struck the same place twice"
i habit i have is that i keep my old fones even tho i don need them animore. just by chance i was mega bored.. and i slipped my sim card back into my samsung and lookd thru the photos and read the text messages agen. and realised, this phone is a time & memory preserver. tracked back to the times and the moment of need when i was mega bored, mou liu, or even just sick or mega sadfish and those frends and comforting words putting up with my lameness and perservering thru the pain im putting them thru with my annoyingness x)
shengque for everything. there were tears of joy and sadness in those moments but it reminded me why i kept my phones. to preserve the memories that i chose to keep of my frends and more ;)
i habit i have is that i keep my old fones even tho i don need them animore. just by chance i was mega bored.. and i slipped my sim card back into my samsung and lookd thru the photos and read the text messages agen. and realised, this phone is a time & memory preserver. tracked back to the times and the moment of need when i was mega bored, mou liu, or even just sick or mega sadfish and those frends and comforting words putting up with my lameness and perservering thru the pain im putting them thru with my annoyingness x)
shengque for everything. there were tears of joy and sadness in those moments but it reminded me why i kept my phones. to preserve the memories that i chose to keep of my frends and more ;)
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
is truth relative?
is truth relative? would a yes mean a no yet at the same time mean a yes?
does the cat & box experiment prove taht ? hmmm
something i was pretty sure it was true yet hopeful it wasnt. turned out to be not. and something i thought was suppose to be isnt actually.. hmm ~
does the cat & box experiment prove taht ? hmmm
something i was pretty sure it was true yet hopeful it wasnt. turned out to be not. and something i thought was suppose to be isnt actually.. hmm ~
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
:)
needa live my own life, needa stop think-ing backwards to the past (Y)
needa learn to appreciate whos infronta me, needa learn to be confident in my own decisions
needa stop rely-ing on the comfort some1else gives you
needa be independant and smile at the bad times
needa stop being so predictable and irrational
needa learn to be a leader and a role model
needa learn to love others as much as i love myself
needa learn to love myself
needa press pause when things are hectic and press open for my heart to let God into my life ♥
needa learn to appreciate whos infronta me, needa learn to be confident in my own decisions
needa stop rely-ing on the comfort some1else gives you
needa be independant and smile at the bad times
needa stop being so predictable and irrational
needa learn to be a leader and a role model
needa learn to love others as much as i love myself
needa learn to love myself
needa press pause when things are hectic and press open for my heart to let God into my life ♥
Friday, August 20, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
18-08-2010
everythings fixed now :)
todae it makes me keep thinking, what happend in those two daes when everything felt like a fantasy flash back.. but its okay.
ive learnt theres nothing i can do to make things better or worse for the situation. but i guess we didnt know waht we wer both thinking but im pretty sure i made it obvious ennough. the way we wer all standing at the busstop.. then u went to stand in the sun and then i went to talk to A & C and when you came back.. i moved.
like the way when you can go back to the past and say to them : hey we havent talked in a while , hows things going ?
its like it don really matter for you. or do we havta wait till weve not talked for that long before youd start remembering we used to be bestfrends ? imy but i cant tel you bcos i dont wanna end up having to confront the fact that maybe you dont actually care animore. it did seem all like a game until we realised bestfrends means commitment then things fell apart. heh
on the other hand... -for some1else-
i keep questioning if we did this on purpose to test our boundaries.. but i have no or little faith we will pull thru. remember hwo i told you i get bored easily ? if i have to.. i move on just as fast. would things be like 2 years ago when we jst spontaneously stopped talking ? i dunro how i feel about the situation now... its starting to feel like .. idkare animore.. and thats starting to worry me
todae it makes me keep thinking, what happend in those two daes when everything felt like a fantasy flash back.. but its okay.
ive learnt theres nothing i can do to make things better or worse for the situation. but i guess we didnt know waht we wer both thinking but im pretty sure i made it obvious ennough. the way we wer all standing at the busstop.. then u went to stand in the sun and then i went to talk to A & C and when you came back.. i moved.
like the way when you can go back to the past and say to them : hey we havent talked in a while , hows things going ?
its like it don really matter for you. or do we havta wait till weve not talked for that long before youd start remembering we used to be bestfrends ? imy but i cant tel you bcos i dont wanna end up having to confront the fact that maybe you dont actually care animore. it did seem all like a game until we realised bestfrends means commitment then things fell apart. heh
on the other hand... -for some1else-
i keep questioning if we did this on purpose to test our boundaries.. but i have no or little faith we will pull thru. remember hwo i told you i get bored easily ? if i have to.. i move on just as fast. would things be like 2 years ago when we jst spontaneously stopped talking ? i dunro how i feel about the situation now... its starting to feel like .. idkare animore.. and thats starting to worry me
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
cute :)
haha. fcuk i hate my jap teacher .. shes sucha waste of life..
but thats okay (Y)
had a great time todae~ even tho abit ALOT stressed, bio was fun :)
laughing with jan LOL. about nothing just like in junior yrs...
being amused by the straightface we wer all trying to pull, and the clicky sound by the mouse AHAHAHA makes me smile just thinking about it
then R thinking us two are nuts.. then bobbing along with our little " keyboard/mouse/scroller
orchestra xD cute~
oh ydae was funny too~ c-MAN & the bumperstick made in our grade.. writing " ch***to**r D.... " on the bumper stick not expecting the lady to read it out LOUD xD LOLd so hard.. couldnt breathe then the lady was likie :O whats rong ? LOL
ydae was funn too~ hehe :) then M's little ' herro kitty ' fob joke with sera todae.. oml ilyguys :)
but thats okay (Y)
had a great time todae~ even tho abit ALOT stressed, bio was fun :)
laughing with jan LOL. about nothing just like in junior yrs...
being amused by the straightface we wer all trying to pull, and the clicky sound by the mouse AHAHAHA makes me smile just thinking about it
then R thinking us two are nuts.. then bobbing along with our little " keyboard/mouse/scroller
orchestra xD cute~
oh ydae was funny too~ c-MAN & the bumperstick made in our grade.. writing " ch***to**r D.... " on the bumper stick not expecting the lady to read it out LOUD xD LOLd so hard.. couldnt breathe then the lady was likie :O whats rong ? LOL
ydae was funn too~ hehe :) then M's little ' herro kitty ' fob joke with sera todae.. oml ilyguys :)
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
honest
mang, havent been blogging bcos things are so messy lately. just too tired to.
todae is day1 and things are ALREADY a mess. i wonder if we'll last ~ haha my little faith :c im sorry bro (N) i hope your not like me (Y) gloomy bittersweet todae but thats okay :)
haha thanks for designating some1 to "watch out"/unbored for me while ur gone :\
i miss J. like that 2 daes, i had everything back to normal and even going my way (Y) then i hadta draw the line to clear my guiltypath from last time we muckd up..then i was brutely honest & hurt his feelings again :c
Me: blahblahblah is that okay? if we dont?
J: nohp
Me: does it mean you dont even give a shat about how i feel ?
J:no, question right back at you
Me: wtfishballs, -thinking- if you don give a shizzlesausage about how i feel ,then why are we even texting? -pisssed-
J:no, asin i do care. but obviously you dont bcos you dont care for the my feelings for you
oml... -flashback- the weekbefore
J: back in the daes when i had a thing for you. ;)
may i hilight HAD. bogosh! pasttense? exactly! -sighfish-..
why make things so complx when the nite before all this happend, i sed to P, that ive given up hope to mend things (Y) & that ima be a bigirl and drop it
then this crap comes along.. and now im not sure WAHT we are..
& they say girls are indecisive..
i MISS how we hung out, i MISS how you used to care so much, i MISS you visiting me when no FUNNY BUSINESS happend between us. but i DONT miss all the crap we did together.. but its just not rite... i want that frend back. not that boy whos trying to GET with ppl. :c
todae is day1 and things are ALREADY a mess. i wonder if we'll last ~ haha my little faith :c im sorry bro (N) i hope your not like me (Y) gloomy bittersweet todae but thats okay :)
haha thanks for designating some1 to "watch out"/unbored for me while ur gone :\
i miss J. like that 2 daes, i had everything back to normal and even going my way (Y) then i hadta draw the line to clear my guiltypath from last time we muckd up..then i was brutely honest & hurt his feelings again :c
Me: blahblahblah is that okay? if we dont?
J: nohp
Me: does it mean you dont even give a shat about how i feel ?
J:no, question right back at you
Me: wtfishballs, -thinking- if you don give a shizzlesausage about how i feel ,then why are we even texting? -pisssed-
J:no, asin i do care. but obviously you dont bcos you dont care for the my feelings for you
oml... -flashback- the weekbefore
J: back in the daes when i had a thing for you. ;)
may i hilight HAD. bogosh! pasttense? exactly! -sighfish-..
why make things so complx when the nite before all this happend, i sed to P, that ive given up hope to mend things (Y) & that ima be a bigirl and drop it
then this crap comes along.. and now im not sure WAHT we are..
& they say girls are indecisive..
i MISS how we hung out, i MISS how you used to care so much, i MISS you visiting me when no FUNNY BUSINESS happend between us. but i DONT miss all the crap we did together.. but its just not rite... i want that frend back. not that boy whos trying to GET with ppl. :c
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
tired
i dont wanna havta guess wahts rong.. maybe it'll be better if things wer just said.
if things arent meant to be said mayeb theyre meant to be kept so tightly inside they dont surface..
if things arent meant to be said mayeb theyre meant to be kept so tightly inside they dont surface..
Monday, July 19, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
where is the love?
remember that nite.. when i was so quiet in the car... and all that was playing in my head wer the songs.. and the thoughts of waht i just read and waht happend :l
guess i was blind to the fact i made ppl aroudn me worry.. but i couldnt control my sadness enough to pretend nothing happend :c
ummm.. songs time travel you back to those emotions back to the memories and moments you shared why listening to that song. Whether its love, hate, sorrow, hurt or joy.
this time it was questioning and hurt.
the first song was endless story but that was just a song to remember the dae. the song that hit me the most was when A turnd on the radio in thecar on the way home :c
it played.. : where is teh love ? - Black Eyed Peas.
the lines: children hurting you hear them crying, can you practise waht you preach? would you turn the other cheek...
Father father father help us! Send some guidance from above. Cause people got me got me questioning... where is the love...
Lord, our community will continue to pray ... but Lord... pls teach us to pray in BIG G prayers... not little gs... bcos... i know personally.. i still limit you in my prayers...
tyvm for loving us. even when we dont or ignore it :)
guess i was blind to the fact i made ppl aroudn me worry.. but i couldnt control my sadness enough to pretend nothing happend :c
ummm.. songs time travel you back to those emotions back to the memories and moments you shared why listening to that song. Whether its love, hate, sorrow, hurt or joy.
this time it was questioning and hurt.
the first song was endless story but that was just a song to remember the dae. the song that hit me the most was when A turnd on the radio in thecar on the way home :c
it played.. : where is teh love ? - Black Eyed Peas.
the lines: children hurting you hear them crying, can you practise waht you preach? would you turn the other cheek...
Father father father help us! Send some guidance from above. Cause people got me got me questioning... where is the love...
Lord, our community will continue to pray ... but Lord... pls teach us to pray in BIG G prayers... not little gs... bcos... i know personally.. i still limit you in my prayers...
tyvm for loving us. even when we dont or ignore it :)
Friday, July 9, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
a bestfrend
i realised todae :
a bestfrend isnt some1 you idolise
or even like very much bcos in the end... it'll just be a crush
a bestfrend is like a simple mate you share things with. just everydae things. nothing AND everything. when things are boring.. .or even interesting
you can take for ages about boring things in life and turn around and realised youve both made it the most interesting topic for the last few hours.
that is waht a good frend is. there is no such thing as BEST. bcos it'll alwaes change.
dont label your frends in order of your " closenes " things change in time and circumstances just appreciate waht they have at this moment or in those moments and thank God for every step He's lead you in and the people His surrounded you with.
Thankyou God/Jesus/Mr. Holy Spirit :)
a bestfrend isnt some1 you idolise
or even like very much bcos in the end... it'll just be a crush
a bestfrend is like a simple mate you share things with. just everydae things. nothing AND everything. when things are boring.. .or even interesting
you can take for ages about boring things in life and turn around and realised youve both made it the most interesting topic for the last few hours.
that is waht a good frend is. there is no such thing as BEST. bcos it'll alwaes change.
dont label your frends in order of your " closenes " things change in time and circumstances just appreciate waht they have at this moment or in those moments and thank God for every step He's lead you in and the people His surrounded you with.
Thankyou God/Jesus/Mr. Holy Spirit :)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
curries dont deserve a captial C
:)
i HATE YOU FEMALE CURRYPUFFS >:@
they are so digust-ing and ARRGRHHHH MAKES ME RAGE!
stupid grade touch juniors... ruff my curries in my grade :) shout out to yous manng ~
hehehehe i ruff ms vines x) our best engrish teacher ever~
Ms V : i want yous to write about ur senses, when u describe a situation, image taking a picture, waht can u see in it ? now step INTO the picture.. and see, touch, feel, taste & smell the atmosphere.
for example india.
LOOOL
when your in india, theres heat, soo.. " the shimmering heat of india " & the smells... theres smells everywhere " HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
all curries look up all asians laugh
ms V : you know waht i mean...
AAHAHA WE SHURE DO ;)
-M loosk up at B & A giggles- (all curries)
i HATE YOU FEMALE CURRYPUFFS >:@
they are so digust-ing and ARRGRHHHH MAKES ME RAGE!
stupid grade touch juniors... ruff my curries in my grade :) shout out to yous manng ~
hehehehe i ruff ms vines x) our best engrish teacher ever~
Ms V : i want yous to write about ur senses, when u describe a situation, image taking a picture, waht can u see in it ? now step INTO the picture.. and see, touch, feel, taste & smell the atmosphere.
for example india.
LOOOL
when your in india, theres heat, soo.. " the shimmering heat of india " & the smells... theres smells everywhere " HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
all curries look up all asians laugh
ms V : you know waht i mean...
AAHAHA WE SHURE DO ;)
-M loosk up at B & A giggles- (all curries)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
THEALMITEYGOD is humor-ing me :C
its like everytime i decide on something, God humors me.
like how i got over my 7/8 week crush ? and then he decides to remind me of him in every aspect of life. even in my assessments !
like wtfishballs ><
in my legal speech assessment where ppl have their notes infronta them and the entire class gets everi1s notes in a booklet?
in 2 different presentations, his name was in it 3 times? like altogether.. and his name isnt like a common name like: mike or james or watever. its a not common name..
FML...
hahaha R's assessment was so funny. she didnt use spellcheck bcos she didnt use WORD ? example of her typos : " New South whales" LOL J hilighted & giggled thruout all of her presentation, and when she showed us, the entire page was like highlighted LOLFACE!
like how i got over my 7/8 week crush ? and then he decides to remind me of him in every aspect of life. even in my assessments !
like wtfishballs ><
in my legal speech assessment where ppl have their notes infronta them and the entire class gets everi1s notes in a booklet?
in 2 different presentations, his name was in it 3 times? like altogether.. and his name isnt like a common name like: mike or james or watever. its a not common name..
FML...
hahaha R's assessment was so funny. she didnt use spellcheck bcos she didnt use WORD ? example of her typos : " New South whales" LOL J hilighted & giggled thruout all of her presentation, and when she showed us, the entire page was like highlighted LOLFACE!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
lalala
lastnite i was talk-ing to my temporary bf(RG) + C
then C: we should hang out more... lemme put it in a more serious form. I MEAN, let us join in holy matramony"
me: DUUDE, thats getting marrried ! AHAHHAHAHAHA
sucha cutie xP
sooo tired ydae ~ but the 2nd half og the dae was pretty good :D
todae was suppose to be the dae i nerd my haert out.. but it doesnt seem like it xP
then C: we should hang out more... lemme put it in a more serious form. I MEAN, let us join in holy matramony"
me: DUUDE, thats getting marrried ! AHAHHAHAHAHA
sucha cutie xP
sooo tired ydae ~ but the 2nd half og the dae was pretty good :D
todae was suppose to be the dae i nerd my haert out.. but it doesnt seem like it xP
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
lols sundae 060610
taught little kiddies in sundae skool todae ?
J; waht do u wanna be when you grow up ?
littleC : i wanna be a SCIENTIST :D
J+I ; thats great ^^ waht about you littleI ?
littleI: i wanna be a diver !
J+I thats ckool how bout you littleM ? :D
littleM: i....i wanna be ABRAHAM ! LOOOL
J+I; ... aww thats great ! lets move on .. LOOOOOLLLL
weve taught them well ;)
-in my own sundae skool class-
AuntieK: when you love ur neighbour.. u dont jsut love ONE.. u love the WHOLE LOT !
P: soz J ....
J: :O WAHT DO U MEAN
P: you havta love ' gar lei yun ' tooo.
J: OMG... FML LOOOOOOL. -made my dae- xD
J; waht do u wanna be when you grow up ?
littleC : i wanna be a SCIENTIST :D
J+I ; thats great ^^ waht about you littleI ?
littleI: i wanna be a diver !
J+I thats ckool how bout you littleM ? :D
littleM: i....i wanna be ABRAHAM ! LOOOL
J+I; ... aww thats great ! lets move on .. LOOOOOLLLL
weve taught them well ;)
-in my own sundae skool class-
AuntieK: when you love ur neighbour.. u dont jsut love ONE.. u love the WHOLE LOT !
P: soz J ....
J: :O WAHT DO U MEAN
P: you havta love ' gar lei yun ' tooo.
J: OMG... FML LOOOOOOL. -made my dae- xD
tick tock around the clock x)
found out.. i waste alotta time with you. even soemtimes when im just doing nothing ... or even when im study-ing ur sucha distraction. even tho wer not great frends... i sometimes wish we were. but cant imagine how much time youd take up if we were. so i guess its a good thing :)
thought about deleting you off msn, but i gues thats kinda cold : thought of just not worry-ing about even talking animore ... couldnt help myself but to ask how your doing. somtimes even wanted to make an excuse just to stay off msn or even to stop thinking about it but i guess its just running around bcos of my boredom xP
time to clear distractions. after 7 daes id know waht to do :) bcos thats the amount of time i gave myself to get over my distractions in life and to focus on things tht kinda assist me in properiousing more in life.
so from tonite til next sundae nite :) the answer will pop up. 7 daes to go !
thought about deleting you off msn, but i gues thats kinda cold : thought of just not worry-ing about even talking animore ... couldnt help myself but to ask how your doing. somtimes even wanted to make an excuse just to stay off msn or even to stop thinking about it but i guess its just running around bcos of my boredom xP
time to clear distractions. after 7 daes id know waht to do :) bcos thats the amount of time i gave myself to get over my distractions in life and to focus on things tht kinda assist me in properiousing more in life.
so from tonite til next sundae nite :) the answer will pop up. 7 daes to go !
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
im scared...
im scared about this:
when people you know become ppl you knew.. the ppl u walk down the street with become ppl who you walk past the street in..
but most of all :
scared of forever.. im a person who gets bored easily.. waht would it be liek when we enter heaven ? to a God we know very little about but knows everything of us ? what will it be to be in forever ? ... im scared..
when people you know become ppl you knew.. the ppl u walk down the street with become ppl who you walk past the street in..
but most of all :
scared of forever.. im a person who gets bored easily.. waht would it be liek when we enter heaven ? to a God we know very little about but knows everything of us ? what will it be to be in forever ? ... im scared..
Monday, May 31, 2010
todae was good :)
even tho my brains cry-ing bcos of legal & maths ext. ?
todae was good :)
had maths (wasnt too bad)
train ride :) things are getting better. comfortable not perfect but comfortable enough to keep it to ourselves
sleep + food
studies :\ but everythingelse is great.
tomrorow is legal then maths ext. after that no exams.
but engrish ext assess. and then Ls :S
i hope i survive this week, bcos your the reason i survive to reach the other end of the week <3
todae was good :)
had maths (wasnt too bad)
train ride :) things are getting better. comfortable not perfect but comfortable enough to keep it to ourselves
sleep + food
studies :\ but everythingelse is great.
tomrorow is legal then maths ext. after that no exams.
but engrish ext assess. and then Ls :S
i hope i survive this week, bcos your the reason i survive to reach the other end of the week <3
Saturday, May 29, 2010
awmygorsh. lonefish
mygorsh.. i miss you guys. clearly once a week or sometimes twice is not nearly enough :C
but i learnt.. i shouldnt be going bcos of the ppl but rather for God :) but... it is very lonefish without you guys.... :C sadfish...
ive counted up to 7 ppl hassl-ing me about CJCAMP2010... fml dim suen ler ?
but JK has given me a good 7 daes from todae to tell him and decide.. waht to do waht to do ><
oh weels.. back to being a nerdfish 8D gl anyone who has exams...
oh P.S. A.TIBBS spoke todae. he wasnt so badd... maybe its bcos we havent had him for a while... or maybe my attention span when i was a little kiddie was way way shorter than now ? but i reakon it was very enjoyable and quite good :)
hope he didnt feel like an outside.. and still felt our love as a community :l
V: "pray for those who has been part of this and has walked away or left, bcos the ppl who has heard about Him yet walked away and decided on living an independant life from Him, have it far worse than those who have never known Him "
but i learnt.. i shouldnt be going bcos of the ppl but rather for God :) but... it is very lonefish without you guys.... :C sadfish...
ive counted up to 7 ppl hassl-ing me about CJCAMP2010... fml dim suen ler ?
but JK has given me a good 7 daes from todae to tell him and decide.. waht to do waht to do ><
oh weels.. back to being a nerdfish 8D gl anyone who has exams...
oh P.S. A.TIBBS spoke todae. he wasnt so badd... maybe its bcos we havent had him for a while... or maybe my attention span when i was a little kiddie was way way shorter than now ? but i reakon it was very enjoyable and quite good :)
hope he didnt feel like an outside.. and still felt our love as a community :l
V: "pray for those who has been part of this and has walked away or left, bcos the ppl who has heard about Him yet walked away and decided on living an independant life from Him, have it far worse than those who have never known Him "
princess & the frog scene
princess & the frog, the most realistic yet magical disney princess movie ever.a movie of independance and magical, both work-ing out in a contradict-ing plot.
Friday, May 28, 2010
ignoreignoreignore
ignorance is bliss.
but
ignorance could also mean stupidity.
im sorry i did all that to let you know... over read-ing everything in between, just to find out it was nothing.
silly me. goes to show how irrational i am in every situation aye...
somethings you remain happy bcos you never knew it happend. but when you know the thing you dont know can hurt you ... but you know you want to know but shouldnt ? it hurts aniwaes.
sounds so confusion. " if dotdotdot was an expression, im sure feel-ing it atm "
- i i i cant decide. what to do. feels like all situations inter-connect in some way. and their obstcle is me :C feels quite horrible. to know in all situtions, i kept look-ing for the source to 'resolve' find-ing the very last step lead straight back to myself
but
ignorance could also mean stupidity.
im sorry i did all that to let you know... over read-ing everything in between, just to find out it was nothing.
silly me. goes to show how irrational i am in every situation aye...
somethings you remain happy bcos you never knew it happend. but when you know the thing you dont know can hurt you ... but you know you want to know but shouldnt ? it hurts aniwaes.
sounds so confusion. " if dotdotdot was an expression, im sure feel-ing it atm "
- i i i cant decide. what to do. feels like all situations inter-connect in some way. and their obstcle is me :C feels quite horrible. to know in all situtions, i kept look-ing for the source to 'resolve' find-ing the very last step lead straight back to myself
Thursday, May 27, 2010
bigbigBIG domo-kun ?
i must admit .. ive seen aloota domo-kuns in my life. none as big as this ! :O not the cutest tho...its cold
i dunro if tis just me ? or its cold or something..
but i feel like the hole in my haert where you useta stand ? is letting a lotta cold air thru... its not like my haert is cold now ... bcos that will be very sad... but its missing soemthing :C
but i feel like the hole in my haert where you useta stand ? is letting a lotta cold air thru... its not like my haert is cold now ... bcos that will be very sad... but its missing soemthing :C
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
urban dictionary entry O4FEB2O1O
some1 put me on urban dictionary..
okokay make im being ego-istic , maybe its not about me butttt~
mr/ms mysterious person? thanks ? but its very scary. please fess up :)
okokay make im being ego-istic , maybe its not about me butttt~
mr/ms mysterious person? thanks ? but its very scary. please fess up :)
fcuk this shit
im delete-ing everything >:C
every message, every msn convo, everything!
stuff you for being a pussy and not hack-ing it like a man. and being a woman about it and not talk-ing it through. exams are no excuse. if im man enough to talk about it so should you! at the end of the dae? im nt gna go soft and make excuses for myself nor you. this is it. im not gna try and save anything. im prepared to see it get ugly, crash and burn.
dont come crawl-ing back saying ' sorry bby, and all that shit ' bcos im not tak-ing it animore. ' im gna make it up to ' fcuk this. im gna wait how creative you get with ur apologys before i tell it to your face that its fckn gna stop right here.
this is waht i call ; a pretty BIG FAT mistake with a beautifully UGLY end-ing !
every message, every msn convo, everything!
stuff you for being a pussy and not hack-ing it like a man. and being a woman about it and not talk-ing it through. exams are no excuse. if im man enough to talk about it so should you! at the end of the dae? im nt gna go soft and make excuses for myself nor you. this is it. im not gna try and save anything. im prepared to see it get ugly, crash and burn.
dont come crawl-ing back saying ' sorry bby, and all that shit ' bcos im not tak-ing it animore. ' im gna make it up to ' fcuk this. im gna wait how creative you get with ur apologys before i tell it to your face that its fckn gna stop right here.
this is waht i call ; a pretty BIG FAT mistake with a beautifully UGLY end-ing !
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
couldnt go to sleep last nite, so i thought id right it down in advance. and when i got a chance tonite.. while ur not online.. give you this offline message. bcos im too scared to tell you in person or even when ur online.. afraid youd reply... then id never be able to finish.
but during the dae things we did things we say kept making me think.. should i still do it ? -sighs- but then while i was mingling thru my thoughts in teh shower i thought : if i didnt see him offline the moment i signed in ? il do it. but im too scared to: so here it goes
i dunro when this started, but i realised we rally dont talk animore... im pretty sure im not the only ones who realised it, & im sure if we mentioned it, others could say they saw this happen. I remember when i said this to you before.. & you replied you wer just busy or w.e & that i should never let that thought in my head bcos... then i realised im the selfish frend... & that it still wont leave my mind how we used to talk alot about everything and nothing but now, sometimes or eevn not often... we may manage a hi or bye..
im so glad at least you have peopel like J + L etc taht you still talk to.. i dunro if its just me? or .. have we drifted apart?
I know i wouldnt be able to pull of telling you this in person ... & thats why i have arrived at ths. Hope your not maad. bcos frends are honest.. and i guess i just needed you to know ?
You promised we wont get mad at each other? I proved you rong.. bcos i was kinda mad at us being so busy that we dont even talk animore.. But w/e right? ... nothing can be done now
but during the dae things we did things we say kept making me think.. should i still do it ? -sighs- but then while i was mingling thru my thoughts in teh shower i thought : if i didnt see him offline the moment i signed in ? il do it. but im too scared to: so here it goes
i dunro when this started, but i realised we rally dont talk animore... im pretty sure im not the only ones who realised it, & im sure if we mentioned it, others could say they saw this happen. I remember when i said this to you before.. & you replied you wer just busy or w.e & that i should never let that thought in my head bcos... then i realised im the selfish frend... & that it still wont leave my mind how we used to talk alot about everything and nothing but now, sometimes or eevn not often... we may manage a hi or bye..
im so glad at least you have peopel like J + L etc taht you still talk to.. i dunro if its just me? or .. have we drifted apart?
I know i wouldnt be able to pull of telling you this in person ... & thats why i have arrived at ths. Hope your not maad. bcos frends are honest.. and i guess i just needed you to know ?
You promised we wont get mad at each other? I proved you rong.. bcos i was kinda mad at us being so busy that we dont even talk animore.. But w/e right? ... nothing can be done now
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
apple of an eye?
hahaha.. tiffs reasons foh each princess.
j: " wahts an apple of the eye? like a coldsore? "
Thursday, May 6, 2010
thanksyou :$
hehe, thankyou :$
your the one whos reminded me waht feel-ing shy means.
your the one who reminds me how it feels to have to think&worry before starrt-ing a conversation
and how it feels to think of some1 soo many times a dae, you wish youd have spent that time study-ing instead.
your the one who makes me think, omfg... if only youd think of me the same way i do ~
your the one who makes me laugh at anything you say
your the one who makes me tingle inside everytime we talk
and everytime we talk and laugh, it makes my dae.
i hope its not just a feel-ing :) but hopefully a prosperous frendship at the end of the dae...
your the one whos reminded me waht feel-ing shy means.
your the one who reminds me how it feels to have to think&worry before starrt-ing a conversation
and how it feels to think of some1 soo many times a dae, you wish youd have spent that time study-ing instead.
your the one who makes me think, omfg... if only youd think of me the same way i do ~
your the one who makes me laugh at anything you say
your the one who makes me tingle inside everytime we talk
and everytime we talk and laugh, it makes my dae.
i hope its not just a feel-ing :) but hopefully a prosperous frendship at the end of the dae...
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
watever, im delete-ing you now
im delete-ing you forever. bcos everytime something doesnt work out i delete you off msn.
so i wouldnt be tempted to talk to you again.. i even deleted you off my fone so i wouldnt be tempted to say sorry homo.
but its not working >< bcos u keep texting me and it lingers in my inbox and i dont wanna delete the text..
bcos i alwaes fall for your sorrys... then i let it go. but its not working out ><
everytime you get distracted when we talk ? it kills that little bit more inside... i dont want that animore. you used to be the listener. and now ... its just falling apart.
i dont have the courage to tell it to your face.. so i guess its gna be another " backing away then eventually fall outta touch situations' happens to all the relos i regret. but weve fixed it once, i guess its already my personal best
so i wouldnt be tempted to talk to you again.. i even deleted you off my fone so i wouldnt be tempted to say sorry homo.
but its not working >< bcos u keep texting me and it lingers in my inbox and i dont wanna delete the text..
bcos i alwaes fall for your sorrys... then i let it go. but its not working out ><
everytime you get distracted when we talk ? it kills that little bit more inside... i dont want that animore. you used to be the listener. and now ... its just falling apart.
i dont have the courage to tell it to your face.. so i guess its gna be another " backing away then eventually fall outta touch situations' happens to all the relos i regret. but weve fixed it once, i guess its already my personal best
Saturday, April 17, 2010
waaah. its been long.
omfg... i havent blogged in a while...
im very mixed atm. frendships became very vague to me.
my definition is : a person you know. that is a frend to me.
but frends come in different levels yeh ? i mean..intimacy. i mean you wouldnt go to a randomdom and tel them. hey man, im hurt-ing soo much inside. pleaaaaase help me :O
i mean.. i think youd never make another frend whod take yous sersly if you did :O
but yehhh~ its so confusing. and some frends you think. yehh things are pretty ckoool. everythings pat down. then other complications arise. (wow i sound so smart hehe)
ummm. i hate drawing lines. bcos theres never a line thats straight soo much confusion requrieed/created/ watever.
i wished i never knew waht you tolod me... bcos noww i havta back off and keep a distance bcos i dont wanna be in the middle of YOUR muddle and make things more complicating for you ... ><
but ur suppose to be my (synonym to best)frend...
i miss you :( i really do.
im very mixed atm. frendships became very vague to me.
my definition is : a person you know. that is a frend to me.
but frends come in different levels yeh ? i mean..intimacy. i mean you wouldnt go to a randomdom and tel them. hey man, im hurt-ing soo much inside. pleaaaaase help me :O
i mean.. i think youd never make another frend whod take yous sersly if you did :O
but yehhh~ its so confusing. and some frends you think. yehh things are pretty ckoool. everythings pat down. then other complications arise. (wow i sound so smart hehe)
ummm. i hate drawing lines. bcos theres never a line thats straight soo much confusion requrieed/created/ watever.
i wished i never knew waht you tolod me... bcos noww i havta back off and keep a distance bcos i dont wanna be in the middle of YOUR muddle and make things more complicating for you ... ><
but ur suppose to be my (synonym to best)frend...
i miss you :( i really do.
Monday, March 8, 2010
forever? psht
mmmmmm, very distracted in every way. ooops.
" Im glad wer still close like before " he says.
" I wonder what will happen if we got angry at each other , would this end ? " i say
" We wont get angry at each other. but if we do, id cry" he says
dont wanna be pessimistic maaang, but when you expect forever, it kinda doessssnt really work taht way..
lucky God is forever without a doubt. -phewwwf- loveloveloveYou God&Jesus&Mr.Holy Spirit
hmmm~ on a more serial note: discipleship, & china.. i know... camp aint suppose to be about funfunfun... but... i can imagine hwo gay its gna be without very important ppl who make the camps awsome :) & with china... i dont think im ready. i want it to be something i do when im really ready & i can do it whole heartedly and just wanna BURST AND HELP PPL :D but right now, im not quite there yet even on the maturity levels. I hope they have fun & learn alot about serving ppls but :o
puts a smile to my face when i hear how others have realised theyve showd a little bit og God in their lives ; tehee..
OMFISHINGGORSH, i needa do my speech... fml
hehee.. finding every single excuse not to do it... even PLAYING THE PIANO before it .. wtf..
okokay concentrate! bubbbies -lovelove-
" Im glad wer still close like before " he says.
" I wonder what will happen if we got angry at each other , would this end ? " i say
" We wont get angry at each other. but if we do, id cry" he says
dont wanna be pessimistic maaang, but when you expect forever, it kinda doessssnt really work taht way..
lucky God is forever without a doubt. -phewwwf- loveloveloveYou God&Jesus&Mr.Holy Spirit
hmmm~ on a more serial note: discipleship, & china.. i know... camp aint suppose to be about funfunfun... but... i can imagine hwo gay its gna be without very important ppl who make the camps awsome :) & with china... i dont think im ready. i want it to be something i do when im really ready & i can do it whole heartedly and just wanna BURST AND HELP PPL :D but right now, im not quite there yet even on the maturity levels. I hope they have fun & learn alot about serving ppls but :o
puts a smile to my face when i hear how others have realised theyve showd a little bit og God in their lives ; tehee..
OMFISHINGGORSH, i needa do my speech... fml
hehee.. finding every single excuse not to do it... even PLAYING THE PIANO before it .. wtf..
okokay concentrate! bubbbies -lovelove-
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
pierc-ings & alice in wonderland !
yaaaaay~ alice in wonderland :) excitable ? yes
ummm, pierc-ing. marmie approved ofcourse ! she sed: if i let you get this one, your gna want to get more and more...
damn straight ! but thats a little later when your a softy about it all agens.
teheee. right now im happy with the deal i made with you!
ummm, pierc-ing. marmie approved ofcourse ! she sed: if i let you get this one, your gna want to get more and more...
damn straight ! but thats a little later when your a softy about it all agens.
teheee. right now im happy with the deal i made with you!
life sucks balls ALL the time.
im trying really hard i promise...
seems like a tonn of bricks just fell on top of me. now i finally knnow how humpty dumpty felt when he fell off that wall... he broke his head, but i broke my heart.
at least his head was hollow, so he didnt loose much. but yehh...
" its sad when ppl you know bcome pple you knew, when you can walk right past some1 like they wer never a big patr of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. its sad how times change"
life sucks balls all the time...
i guess whn you take some1s love for granted, you loose a lot more than you expect. but, i hope its just some stupid phase, bcos ive realised life without some1 like you to make me dae IS really dull...
and waiting eevrydae for you to make my dae sure ruins every other dae you dont turn up.
seems like a tonn of bricks just fell on top of me. now i finally knnow how humpty dumpty felt when he fell off that wall... he broke his head, but i broke my heart.
at least his head was hollow, so he didnt loose much. but yehh...
" its sad when ppl you know bcome pple you knew, when you can walk right past some1 like they wer never a big patr of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. its sad how times change"
life sucks balls all the time...
i guess whn you take some1s love for granted, you loose a lot more than you expect. but, i hope its just some stupid phase, bcos ive realised life without some1 like you to make me dae IS really dull...
and waiting eevrydae for you to make my dae sure ruins every other dae you dont turn up.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Im like a Statue Stuck staring right at YOU
This is a song... hehe i really like... and... at first, like every other person... id think of the stories behind the song and how it links to me? and then the story the song is trying to protray. of how the guy has an amazing gf that he believes he doesnt deserve and he sings about his love for her and how he suprises and soaks in amazement everytime things go rong but she still sticks with him when .. " she could have any man she wants "
ummm... then R reminded me of devotion... and i thought back to how ive been quite distant to God lately.. reconsidering if i should be song leading... or even leading at all.. or even if i should be doing discipleship? but i did it alwaes... bcos... i knew if i put it off now, its just another excuse i have to never do it ... bcos tis hsc soon... and then uni ... and i heard... " things change " dnt wanna risk widening the gap with HIM.
soooo i re-listend to this song... statue- lil eddie. and.... sang it to God ? sounds a little silly, bcos its not a gospel song or anithing... but please. be patient and sit down and open the youtube vid. and look at the lyrics... and maybe youd get waht im talking about. -lovelove-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAIWXD0lNxA
When a day is said and done,
In the middle of the night and youre fast asleep, my love.
Stay awake looking at your beauty,
Telling myself im the luckiest man alive.
Cause so many times i was certain you was gonna walk out of my life.
Why you take such a hold of me girl,When im still trying to get my act right.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer.
I shouldve been a [season],
guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?
Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when im lost for words
,Everytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause i cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (stuck like a statue)
Ask myself why is you even with me,
After all the xxxx i put you through,
Why did you make it hard
Its like youre living and i make you??
But baby your love is so warm it makes my shield melt down (down),
And everytime were both at war,
You make me come around.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer for.
I shouldve been a [season],guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?
Chorus
Every single day of my life i thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause theres no explanation,cant solve the equation
Its like you love me more than i love myself.
Chorus
When a day is said and done,And in the middle of the night youre fast asleep, my love
Im the luckiest man alive.
****soooo, wer the luckiest (wo)men alive, bcos God is so amazing he ... makes us stuck for words everytime we disapoint him bcos his so amazing. .. and soo many times we mite want Him to walk out of our lives... but He doesnt..
and He knows we all have potential to do/serve Him .. so He is OUR MIRACLE.
and when our love breaks down.. He never leaves us... sooo this is to you God
ummm... then R reminded me of devotion... and i thought back to how ive been quite distant to God lately.. reconsidering if i should be song leading... or even leading at all.. or even if i should be doing discipleship? but i did it alwaes... bcos... i knew if i put it off now, its just another excuse i have to never do it ... bcos tis hsc soon... and then uni ... and i heard... " things change " dnt wanna risk widening the gap with HIM.
soooo i re-listend to this song... statue- lil eddie. and.... sang it to God ? sounds a little silly, bcos its not a gospel song or anithing... but please. be patient and sit down and open the youtube vid. and look at the lyrics... and maybe youd get waht im talking about. -lovelove-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAIWXD0lNxA
When a day is said and done,
In the middle of the night and youre fast asleep, my love.
Stay awake looking at your beauty,
Telling myself im the luckiest man alive.
Cause so many times i was certain you was gonna walk out of my life.
Why you take such a hold of me girl,When im still trying to get my act right.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer.
I shouldve been a [season],
guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?
Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when im lost for words
,Everytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause i cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (stuck like a statue)
Ask myself why is you even with me,
After all the xxxx i put you through,
Why did you make it hard
Its like youre living and i make you??
But baby your love is so warm it makes my shield melt down (down),
And everytime were both at war,
You make me come around.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what i have to offer for.
I shouldve been a [season],guess you could see i had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?
Chorus
Every single day of my life i thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause theres no explanation,cant solve the equation
Its like you love me more than i love myself.
Chorus
When a day is said and done,And in the middle of the night youre fast asleep, my love
Im the luckiest man alive.
****soooo, wer the luckiest (wo)men alive, bcos God is so amazing he ... makes us stuck for words everytime we disapoint him bcos his so amazing. .. and soo many times we mite want Him to walk out of our lives... but He doesnt..
and He knows we all have potential to do/serve Him .. so He is OUR MIRACLE.
and when our love breaks down.. He never leaves us... sooo this is to you God
things im addicted toooo ♥ & my dae todae (first of autumn 2o1o)
icecreaaaaam! this awsome goodness about it. im addicted to the COLDNESSSSS IT BRINGS YOU that makes your tongue go numb, then the after feeling seeps in with the creamy flavours associated :)
coffeeee ; the smell is super MMMMMMmmmmm~
the silly things my frends say :
there are many msn codes that ppl often get rong or the rong meaning of: (some commited my yours truely some, by my frends xd )
*in the brackets are the real meanings*
fag: (adouchebagmale) friendly asian guy
fop: fresh off the plane
w/e: (watever) wouldnt everyone?
tbh: (to be honest) tooth brush holder
stfu: (shut the eff up) stuff u!
apec:(some international forum, dont even know the actually words) apple pie eating competition
todae was so nerve-racking... kidna expecting you wer gna visit during the free, and kinda sooo hoping you wont at the same time. didnt see you at all todae ~ then found out from ur homiies in the arvo most of the guys wer at swimming T_______________T
your stupid mate keeps hitting on me >< what a douche-bag...
stupid CC brought up " the relos of JC in yr7 " first sentence: oh yeh she was T's ex!
Chris: WTFISHH YOU WENT OUT WITH THAT GUY!?
mannng... never gna hear the end of this in rollcall ><
... scared to call OHS teacher... shizzzles ><
P.S. hehe most uni students start todae :) hope they liked being the little fishys agen :) lys all
P.P.S talked to W ydae.. about a certain some1 we wer not content with animore... its soo sad we lost respect for him... i really valued him as a frend and some1 i could rely on :( but.. ppl change, things change and we havta moove on right? buttt i hope one dae, when wer both more mature we can meet all over agen and be even stronger than before ^^
P.P.P.S WATCHEDD LION KINGII & ALADDDIN (in chinese) ydae with everyone :)
P.P.P.P.S ive been lied to for 16 yrs... i thought the disney side story from beauty & the beast was the ACTUAL STORY -heartcracks- then i realised this yr... thaaaat, none of those " be my guests" and etc songs are in it .. so its a FAKE! (side story)
and... i realised last yr its "skin cancer" not " sun cancer" but the SUN gives you CANCER! but meh, im still calling it SUN CANCER ;)
coffeeee ; the smell is super MMMMMMmmmmm~
the silly things my frends say :
there are many msn codes that ppl often get rong or the rong meaning of: (some commited my yours truely some, by my frends xd )
*in the brackets are the real meanings*
fag: (adouchebagmale) friendly asian guy
fop: fresh off the plane
w/e: (watever) wouldnt everyone?
tbh: (to be honest) tooth brush holder
stfu: (shut the eff up) stuff u!
apec:(some international forum, dont even know the actually words) apple pie eating competition
todae was so nerve-racking... kidna expecting you wer gna visit during the free, and kinda sooo hoping you wont at the same time. didnt see you at all todae ~ then found out from ur homiies in the arvo most of the guys wer at swimming T_______________T
your stupid mate keeps hitting on me >< what a douche-bag...
stupid CC brought up " the relos of JC in yr7 " first sentence: oh yeh she was T's ex!
Chris: WTFISHH YOU WENT OUT WITH THAT GUY!?
mannng... never gna hear the end of this in rollcall ><
... scared to call OHS teacher... shizzzles ><
P.S. hehe most uni students start todae :) hope they liked being the little fishys agen :) lys all
P.P.S talked to W ydae.. about a certain some1 we wer not content with animore... its soo sad we lost respect for him... i really valued him as a frend and some1 i could rely on :( but.. ppl change, things change and we havta moove on right? buttt i hope one dae, when wer both more mature we can meet all over agen and be even stronger than before ^^
P.P.P.S WATCHEDD LION KINGII & ALADDDIN (in chinese) ydae with everyone :)
P.P.P.P.S ive been lied to for 16 yrs... i thought the disney side story from beauty & the beast was the ACTUAL STORY -heartcracks- then i realised this yr... thaaaat, none of those " be my guests" and etc songs are in it .. so its a FAKE! (side story)
and... i realised last yr its "skin cancer" not " sun cancer" but the SUN gives you CANCER! but meh, im still calling it SUN CANCER ;)
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
♥
hehe you make my dae like everydae :)
love people who :
-rings up just to say hi ^^
-texts to see how your going
-does crazy things to make you smile
-looks up funny jokes just to entertain you
-offers a shoulder to cry on
-bashes ppl who make you cry
& encourages your every dream so maybe one dae you can reach that goal together :)
love people who :
-rings up just to say hi ^^
-texts to see how your going
-does crazy things to make you smile
-looks up funny jokes just to entertain you
-offers a shoulder to cry on
-bashes ppl who make you cry
& encourages your every dream so maybe one dae you can reach that goal together :)
Monday, February 22, 2010
stfu
im sorry im so immature...
im sorry im so childish
im sorry our frendship was just like any other... and needed to end on a bad note
but... your the one who started it you retard ! be a man and own up ! _angryyyface-
yehh.. i was being gay and carrying on but ... i just needed to be alone you know ? i needed to give you that cold shoulder for a reason... and now youve built a wall...
rome wasnt built in a dae... wellll, maybe YOU can ! given you could build a massively thick wall within seconds...
if loosing a frend lke me was a subject at skool ? gosh ur talented, A++++++++ without even studying buddie ! *%^&%$##@!#
im sorry im so childish
im sorry our frendship was just like any other... and needed to end on a bad note
but... your the one who started it you retard ! be a man and own up ! _angryyyface-
yehh.. i was being gay and carrying on but ... i just needed to be alone you know ? i needed to give you that cold shoulder for a reason... and now youve built a wall...
rome wasnt built in a dae... wellll, maybe YOU can ! given you could build a massively thick wall within seconds...
if loosing a frend lke me was a subject at skool ? gosh ur talented, A++++++++ without even studying buddie ! *%^&%$##@!#
Sunday, February 21, 2010
i felt teary todae when the speaker talked about temptation... & how our B&S in Christ are holding each other accountable..
and how temptation is so mighty and deceptive..
he kept repeating.. how he wouldnt be waht he was without his BASinC ... and how astray he wouldnt been without God and everything...
well, i did actually think about it.. and it did kinda make me cry
imagining it without you guys is kinda ... scary...
and imagining just leaving it all behind and not seeing yous again is scary too ...
wonder if that'll ever happen...
if we'd ever loose contact one dae or maybe that one dae isnt even far at all... bcos ive realised once u recongise the relationship you have with ppl, usually it falls apart... bcos you expect that little more.
having a perfectly good thing is precious... but not until recently ? ive realised, having too much of a perfectly good thing is very draining..
but pulling out of it is just a complete sign of stupidity...
and how temptation is so mighty and deceptive..
he kept repeating.. how he wouldnt be waht he was without his BASinC ... and how astray he wouldnt been without God and everything...
well, i did actually think about it.. and it did kinda make me cry
imagining it without you guys is kinda ... scary...
and imagining just leaving it all behind and not seeing yous again is scary too ...
wonder if that'll ever happen...
if we'd ever loose contact one dae or maybe that one dae isnt even far at all... bcos ive realised once u recongise the relationship you have with ppl, usually it falls apart... bcos you expect that little more.
having a perfectly good thing is precious... but not until recently ? ive realised, having too much of a perfectly good thing is very draining..
but pulling out of it is just a complete sign of stupidity...
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
you know that one smell , or that one song that brings up all these crazy memories? well, todae i found a new song and a new memorie to go with it.
if you read this , maybe you wanna pay this song a visit :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyGNfbKkMVE
but if u dnt wanna or in a rush, here are the lyrics ; maybe theyd mean something to you to ? maybe youd getta create ur own memory that guys with the song :
http://www.elyricsworld.com/angel_cry_lyrics_mariah_carey_ft_ne-yo.html
sorry... was gna paste it out but it didnt paste in columns..
P.S. on a more .. serious note..
dont u feel like you seek for approval from , elders, parents or watever.. and their not even listening? but their the ppl who u want the support from the most ? but watever.. everitime i tell her shes not even listening to me.. she ignores it.
guess sometimes parents just dont understand aye. :l
if you read this , maybe you wanna pay this song a visit :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyGNfbKkMVE
but if u dnt wanna or in a rush, here are the lyrics ; maybe theyd mean something to you to ? maybe youd getta create ur own memory that guys with the song :
http://www.elyricsworld.com/angel_cry_lyrics_mariah_carey_ft_ne-yo.html
sorry... was gna paste it out but it didnt paste in columns..
P.S. on a more .. serious note..
dont u feel like you seek for approval from , elders, parents or watever.. and their not even listening? but their the ppl who u want the support from the most ? but watever.. everitime i tell her shes not even listening to me.. she ignores it.
guess sometimes parents just dont understand aye. :l
Saturday, February 6, 2010
aaaah, why you wanna do that to me. you drive me crazy xP
last yr we wer all like ckool. then kinda angry at each other bcos you hadta leave. & awkward on teh last dae bcos im really bad at goodbubbies..
& even during the holidaes, we didnt say a word. but now that wer talking agen, i miss you liek crazy bro ><
reallly wished you wer here... but you seem to be enjoying yourself. so im happy for you <3
on a more sers note..
: to some1else ,
i learnt to be completely honest. & honesty did pay off when i told you i missed us being bros.. but now that ive sed this.. it hasnt really made a difference... bcos i secretly know our frendships slipping away..
i know you told me you still luffed me no matter, but why does it seem like your a different person ? wished it was still the same.
watevers. i can only go uphill when youve touched the bottom rite?
last yr we wer all like ckool. then kinda angry at each other bcos you hadta leave. & awkward on teh last dae bcos im really bad at goodbubbies..
& even during the holidaes, we didnt say a word. but now that wer talking agen, i miss you liek crazy bro ><
reallly wished you wer here... but you seem to be enjoying yourself. so im happy for you <3
on a more sers note..
: to some1else ,
i learnt to be completely honest. & honesty did pay off when i told you i missed us being bros.. but now that ive sed this.. it hasnt really made a difference... bcos i secretly know our frendships slipping away..
i know you told me you still luffed me no matter, but why does it seem like your a different person ? wished it was still the same.
watevers. i can only go uphill when youve touched the bottom rite?
Monday, February 1, 2010
some things you havta admit, some things you havta accept..
some things you havta let go of and some things you just lie to yourself about bcos it makes you feel that little bit more worthy of it all..
some things, YOU think is reasonable.. some things others think its a big deal...
one dae... just one sundae surely wasnt too overboard? surely it wasnt too unreasonable ? but here there are .. 10 billion voices telling me what to do with my life..
yeh i sound stubborn and stupid and unreasonable but watever. i just wanted to get away from it all and its not like i even do it on a regular basis... how many ppl dont turn up to sundae skool bcos they dont feel like it or decided to sleep in ? and here i am.... once in i dunro how many years.. i get told off for it...
but watever...
sersly didnt think anyone would notice so it didnt matter? but the one time they did? it HADTA be this tiem.. yehh.. it feels like some game Gods playing with me ... but i dont wanna give in just yet..
some things you havta let go of and some things you just lie to yourself about bcos it makes you feel that little bit more worthy of it all..
some things, YOU think is reasonable.. some things others think its a big deal...
one dae... just one sundae surely wasnt too overboard? surely it wasnt too unreasonable ? but here there are .. 10 billion voices telling me what to do with my life..
yeh i sound stubborn and stupid and unreasonable but watever. i just wanted to get away from it all and its not like i even do it on a regular basis... how many ppl dont turn up to sundae skool bcos they dont feel like it or decided to sleep in ? and here i am.... once in i dunro how many years.. i get told off for it...
but watever...
sersly didnt think anyone would notice so it didnt matter? but the one time they did? it HADTA be this tiem.. yehh.. it feels like some game Gods playing with me ... but i dont wanna give in just yet..
Thursday, January 28, 2010
first daes are excitable 8P
todae is the first dae of yr11,
no matter how dashing everyone looks in our new senior white shirts, somethings just not right xD
maybe bcos wer still sooo immature we dont deserve the white shirts, but finally we feel like a famfam speeding towards the same goal. HSC heh Lol
but watver :) 8) soo exciting ive got goals this yr ! bubbbbbies sweetdreams all xoxo
no matter how dashing everyone looks in our new senior white shirts, somethings just not right xD
maybe bcos wer still sooo immature we dont deserve the white shirts, but finally we feel like a famfam speeding towards the same goal. HSC heh Lol
but watver :) 8) soo exciting ive got goals this yr ! bubbbbbies sweetdreams all xoxo
Sunday, January 24, 2010
respect & frendship change...
I think every decision i make is based either on, duty or pure emoticions im feeling at taht exact moment.
so sometimes i think reallllllllly stupid & ridciluoussssssss ideas & thoughts come up ...
but... ever since ive been back.. it was fun... first 3 daes? but after that.. i got tired & not sick ? but... bored... ? i dunro.. i dont wanna go backwards or forward? but i dont wanna stop and stay where i am either? i just wanna evaporate or erase my memory or something. haha.. how weird right ?
i have a frend,, who i used to respect like crazy, now.. maybe not so much. i dunro why. i realllly dont.
i stil love him the same, but now ... its not the same. I no longer wanna pick up the fone when he calls, no longer wanna text him, no longer wanna set aside time to check up with him.
but that just reminds me, the " spare time i have now " i should give it to God... bcos i never spend time with Him now.. im so ashamed of myself, but excuses come up sooo fast. i thought of sharing it with a leader, heh. but i dont wanna hear the " correct answers " when they give it to me ? like the standard ones, but the ones that will actually touch my heart... and move me along again.. (im gna explodsion sooon ><)
i keep saying to myself " yehhh.. its a downhill, i wont be here forever!" but hey, its making me think noww" omgosh,. maybe i am a fat car thats not getting anywhere after a really steep hill" but maybe its just me PMS-ing.
But hey, thats like my other frend.
i dunro, i used to think i was sooo lucky to have him. bcos he put up with my everything. like, i would alwaes " princess syndrome " him like crazy & hed be that poor guy who'd alwaes kinda go along with my dramatic problems.
But since last yr, was it half yearlies or yearlies.. we kinda drifted, bcos we got too busy... for each other.. & i thought. man i love this guy soo much, we'll never be drifted completely, we'll be best budds as soon as we get time..
well i think we kinda got time at the end of last yr, & i did get off my butt side & KINDA put my " princess syndrome " away for a few momo when we talked again, but it still seemed we wer still very busy. very distraacted.
back in the daes... we used to talk EVERY DAE. haha. where whoever would go online first, wed be liek *ding!* first person to say hi on msn without FAIL !
& we even spent a couple of nights & hours discussing & trying to solve a problem we later found out didnt reallly exsist xP.. awww i missed that..
but now ive come back, & youve changed again, ive learnt to respect you more, but i dont feel that connection animore... it breaks my heart. bcos..... i feel like i havta make an effort to talk to you, not like before when i could rock up and just talk & i didnt care waht you thought. but now, i think i do care. & i dunro why. maybe i am becoming that tiny bit older & wiser.. ( heh i wished )
i know its just me lost in the past & that ill havta get over myself soo incrediblly soon... but i really miss that frendship but i know, i was the one who ruined it.
so sometimes i think reallllllllly stupid & ridciluoussssssss ideas & thoughts come up ...
but... ever since ive been back.. it was fun... first 3 daes? but after that.. i got tired & not sick ? but... bored... ? i dunro.. i dont wanna go backwards or forward? but i dont wanna stop and stay where i am either? i just wanna evaporate or erase my memory or something. haha.. how weird right ?
i have a frend,, who i used to respect like crazy, now.. maybe not so much. i dunro why. i realllly dont.
i stil love him the same, but now ... its not the same. I no longer wanna pick up the fone when he calls, no longer wanna text him, no longer wanna set aside time to check up with him.
but that just reminds me, the " spare time i have now " i should give it to God... bcos i never spend time with Him now.. im so ashamed of myself, but excuses come up sooo fast. i thought of sharing it with a leader, heh. but i dont wanna hear the " correct answers " when they give it to me ? like the standard ones, but the ones that will actually touch my heart... and move me along again.. (im gna explodsion sooon ><)
i keep saying to myself " yehhh.. its a downhill, i wont be here forever!" but hey, its making me think noww" omgosh,. maybe i am a fat car thats not getting anywhere after a really steep hill" but maybe its just me PMS-ing.
But hey, thats like my other frend.
i dunro, i used to think i was sooo lucky to have him. bcos he put up with my everything. like, i would alwaes " princess syndrome " him like crazy & hed be that poor guy who'd alwaes kinda go along with my dramatic problems.
But since last yr, was it half yearlies or yearlies.. we kinda drifted, bcos we got too busy... for each other.. & i thought. man i love this guy soo much, we'll never be drifted completely, we'll be best budds as soon as we get time..
well i think we kinda got time at the end of last yr, & i did get off my butt side & KINDA put my " princess syndrome " away for a few momo when we talked again, but it still seemed we wer still very busy. very distraacted.
back in the daes... we used to talk EVERY DAE. haha. where whoever would go online first, wed be liek *ding!* first person to say hi on msn without FAIL !
& we even spent a couple of nights & hours discussing & trying to solve a problem we later found out didnt reallly exsist xP.. awww i missed that..
but now ive come back, & youve changed again, ive learnt to respect you more, but i dont feel that connection animore... it breaks my heart. bcos..... i feel like i havta make an effort to talk to you, not like before when i could rock up and just talk & i didnt care waht you thought. but now, i think i do care. & i dunro why. maybe i am becoming that tiny bit older & wiser.. ( heh i wished )
i know its just me lost in the past & that ill havta get over myself soo incrediblly soon... but i really miss that frendship but i know, i was the one who ruined it.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
feel so ... i dunro how to explain.
not quite sad, not quite upset, but sorta pathetic.
todae the subjects of " girls alwaes loves fags first " was brought up. - people were sharing their issues, experiences or watever. and a name kept getting brought up. bcos it was just some random they knew about, and he was known or classified as a " fag " but amongst all the discussion, all i thought about was someone else.
He was everything V sed a fag was.. just he was never a fag to me... so even until now, no matter how many times ive sed i have, i havent really gotten over it.
i really miss it. no matter how many fags have, or may leave footprints in my life? this one seemed to overpower all of them... seemed sooo stupid bcos it all happened when i was younger and it seemed like nothing back them was even considered as serious... but ive noticed every relo/ nearly relo i had ive compared every single one to that one...
so yeh... what is it about a fag that makes him so unforgetable i dunro & now i just feel pathetic, bcos this yr8 girl sharing her story todae? she seems so completely over it & over the situation and back on track & here i am still dragging on after ... 2 yrs
heh. how pathetic right ?
not quite sad, not quite upset, but sorta pathetic.
todae the subjects of " girls alwaes loves fags first " was brought up. - people were sharing their issues, experiences or watever. and a name kept getting brought up. bcos it was just some random they knew about, and he was known or classified as a " fag " but amongst all the discussion, all i thought about was someone else.
He was everything V sed a fag was.. just he was never a fag to me... so even until now, no matter how many times ive sed i have, i havent really gotten over it.
i really miss it. no matter how many fags have, or may leave footprints in my life? this one seemed to overpower all of them... seemed sooo stupid bcos it all happened when i was younger and it seemed like nothing back them was even considered as serious... but ive noticed every relo/ nearly relo i had ive compared every single one to that one...
so yeh... what is it about a fag that makes him so unforgetable i dunro & now i just feel pathetic, bcos this yr8 girl sharing her story todae? she seems so completely over it & over the situation and back on track & here i am still dragging on after ... 2 yrs
heh. how pathetic right ?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
A, MANY KISSES ALL THE WAY TO FRANCE D:
ohemgee im tired.
saw people todae :) *thumbs up* was gonna go to volleyball to see C , but then last minute bbal was cancelled & stuff stuff so i ended up not going, then he ended up going thinking everi1 was going, then it was all a bigfat confusion... hehe anwiaes... and i didnt get to see A...but yeh..
lol
man, p-loser ruined my nite tonite : first thing as soon as we talk : ' we have 10 daes till skool left ! '
omg bro... best warning in the world.. NOT ! im scared to see your face bcos aparently we have the same colour of hair.. and im like: OHMGOSHHH that reminds me of waht happened in yr8...
but thats something i should forget and let go . (hehe)
back to A .... shes going to FRANCE TO DEFERE FOR A YR BCOS SHES OMGOHSHHHH >< btw, shes flying loiek .. TOMORRROW !?
i thought she was still hanging around for her gap yr.. but she thought i knew..
and mannng, i couldve seen her todae if i wasnt so lazy in not going to volleyball ........ *heart cracks*
so yehh... sleepy but too heartbroken to sleep..
too much to take in , in one nite..
aww todae was some1 speshials 21st celebration :) sooo a bigfatshoutout to you ! if your reading this :) , which your prob not, so im just talking to myself *heh*
im sorry if i seemed out of it... or disinterested in moments, i was so exhausted but all mixed altogether and something, i forgot how to react..
todae.. well... K came up to tell me id hate him.. i couldnt think of it.. but i think some1 told me the reason.. not sure if its the right reason but... im disapointed but ... not much to hate.. but still...
"disapointed " is sucha.... hurtful word...
vinhs used it twice on me... the first time bcos of the sleepover incident with looking dead at service.. and the other one tonite :
Cho: " what IF she really does go-out with him "
Vinh: -look at me- " then id be truthfully and truely disapointed "
i know whatever i say wont work ? but i know nothing will happpen, but i guess he still doesnt believe me.
im tired.. but i cant get to sleep so im prob just babbling on, maybe you should stop reading this, bcos its just completely nothing...
saw people todae :) *thumbs up* was gonna go to volleyball to see C , but then last minute bbal was cancelled & stuff stuff so i ended up not going, then he ended up going thinking everi1 was going, then it was all a bigfat confusion... hehe anwiaes... and i didnt get to see A...but yeh..
lol
man, p-loser ruined my nite tonite : first thing as soon as we talk : ' we have 10 daes till skool left ! '
omg bro... best warning in the world.. NOT ! im scared to see your face bcos aparently we have the same colour of hair.. and im like: OHMGOSHHH that reminds me of waht happened in yr8...
but thats something i should forget and let go . (hehe)
back to A .... shes going to FRANCE TO DEFERE FOR A YR BCOS SHES OMGOHSHHHH >< btw, shes flying loiek .. TOMORRROW !?
i thought she was still hanging around for her gap yr.. but she thought i knew..
and mannng, i couldve seen her todae if i wasnt so lazy in not going to volleyball ........ *heart cracks*
so yehh... sleepy but too heartbroken to sleep..
too much to take in , in one nite..
aww todae was some1 speshials 21st celebration :) sooo a bigfatshoutout to you ! if your reading this :) , which your prob not, so im just talking to myself *heh*
im sorry if i seemed out of it... or disinterested in moments, i was so exhausted but all mixed altogether and something, i forgot how to react..
todae.. well... K came up to tell me id hate him.. i couldnt think of it.. but i think some1 told me the reason.. not sure if its the right reason but... im disapointed but ... not much to hate.. but still...
"disapointed " is sucha.... hurtful word...
vinhs used it twice on me... the first time bcos of the sleepover incident with looking dead at service.. and the other one tonite :
Cho: " what IF she really does go-out with him "
Vinh: -look at me- " then id be truthfully and truely disapointed "
i know whatever i say wont work ? but i know nothing will happpen, but i guess he still doesnt believe me.
im tired.. but i cant get to sleep so im prob just babbling on, maybe you should stop reading this, bcos its just completely nothing...
Saturday, January 2, 2010
merry 2o1o
omgosh i have a lot to say... but i dont have much time..
hehe i realised how precious interent was since i went to korea ( seoul ) & hk... lol
ummmm, wow its 2o1o hehh... new new years resolution. i think mine last yr was, to be good and not get into relo problems but i got owned and didnt suceed in 2009 so now ima gna be super mature and make a resolution worth keeping even for longer than a year
" to value family times " i learnt taht ... every single time i see my grandparents my heart aches inside knowing i dont spend enough time or memories with them.. and they have no gurantee that next time i come back theyd still be healthy and well...
i remember an oldie once told me to value the family time for dindin and anithing else with ur famfam bcos... he doesnt get much time to spend to sit down and have dindin with his animore..
and plus with my grandpapas & grandmamas, i dont wanna imagine not having them around.
bcos im lucky to still have all 4 of my grandparents still here :) they have so much love to give to us everysingle time we come back, its heartbreaking to know they WAIT 2 years every single dae just to see us, and here we are cruising along and only remembering them when they send of easter or xmas cards...
sooo, heres a thank you & i loveyou shout out to famfams of all shapes, sizes, ages and types
merry 2010 :)
hehe i realised how precious interent was since i went to korea ( seoul ) & hk... lol
ummmm, wow its 2o1o hehh... new new years resolution. i think mine last yr was, to be good and not get into relo problems but i got owned and didnt suceed in 2009 so now ima gna be super mature and make a resolution worth keeping even for longer than a year
" to value family times " i learnt taht ... every single time i see my grandparents my heart aches inside knowing i dont spend enough time or memories with them.. and they have no gurantee that next time i come back theyd still be healthy and well...
i remember an oldie once told me to value the family time for dindin and anithing else with ur famfam bcos... he doesnt get much time to spend to sit down and have dindin with his animore..
and plus with my grandpapas & grandmamas, i dont wanna imagine not having them around.
bcos im lucky to still have all 4 of my grandparents still here :) they have so much love to give to us everysingle time we come back, its heartbreaking to know they WAIT 2 years every single dae just to see us, and here we are cruising along and only remembering them when they send of easter or xmas cards...
sooo, heres a thank you & i loveyou shout out to famfams of all shapes, sizes, ages and types
merry 2010 :)
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